An inspectors calls

I feel extremely responsible for the horrid tragedy of what had happened to that young lady. On the other hand at the time it took place I was in a furious temper; you see it didn’t seem so bad at the time because I lost all sense of what was right and let anger and jealousy fill me up to the direst spitefulness.

I mean she did look very pretty and she looked like she could take a horrible comment. However now it is too late! I cannot even go back to say, “sorry Eva Smith”, never mind helping her, thought if I could now that I know the great, vile grief I helped to cause this girls death, I would do all I can for her. Oh why had this had to happen? I feel I can never go to Milward’s again- I noticed even this afternoon- I suppose some of them remember.

I can remember that very night when the inspector came to our home, inspector Goole. He seemed a bit curious at first and said we had killed this girl Eva Smith. I didn’t really recognise the girl or heard her name before. I was shocked to know farther had something to do with this.
Inspector Goole then came over to me curiously as he thought I was involved. I looked at the photograph; I just noticed I knew this girl. I felt horrible knowing that this girl Eva Smith got fired from her job because of me. I didn’t realise at the time. Just because of that silly dress.
Well ... as I should start fresh, I am still a Birling yes Sheila Birling. But I am no longer the person I was 10 years ago. Yes I could admit to my shellfish behaviour and my greedy attitude.
I do feel as if I need to take the blame of the incident from 10 years ago. I think I have learnt from my lesson as I taken on a whole new me. I do not follow my mother’s nor my father’s footsteps. They have leaded me into a position where I do regret every single moment I had spent with them.
I couldn’t imagine how my parents would be feeling ... I mean they were the ones to blame for all this. I and Gerald have moved on and have moved away from my