I feigned sleep until my mother left for school, but even my eyelids didn’t shut out the light. (102)
After Esther’s return from New York, her mother straightaway informed her that she had not succeeded in getting through the writing course which she had planned on taking in Cambridge. The prospect of living in the suburbs was distressing for Esther and …show more content…
Here “Lady Lazarus” may be mentioned again. Lady Lazarus talks about the art of dying and claims that she is exceptionally good at committing suicide. This lady shares a lot of similarities with the poet herself. She tells that she has done "it" again and that she has nine lives, like a cat. We get to know that "it" is dying; but, like the cat, she keeps returning to life. This is similar to Esther’s failed attempts at suicide. She tells us about the first two times that she almost died and says that dying is a theatrical event where people come to see her do it. Plath’s persona also subverts tradition that attempts to bring one back and torture, rather than let one die. Self-destruction pervades the poem as it did Plath’s life. At the end of the poem, the myth of Lazarus is transformed into the myth of the reincarnating phoenix, (a mythical bird that burns alive and then reborn in the ashes). The next decade will be different for the speaker because she plans to "eat" the men, or doctors, so they cannot revive her next time she faces death. Plath describes a personal truth. She was ten when she tried it for the first time and the second time had meant to do it earnestly. But they pulled her back into