Analysis Of Life In My Life

I would like to start this narrative by saying that I am a very troubled and troublesome person. I do not recommend or suggest anyone does what I do and live how I live. Do not ask me about this paper or contact my parents about it when I say the things that I do. This is starting to sound like a warning ha-ha. I live by one motto, it is two words, one of them is explicit and starts with the letter f and the other word is it. But for the purposes of this being for school I will use “screw” it instead. I live like this because in my fifteen years of life I have gone through more than you have in your years on this planet, do not ask for details. Living the way I do sucks most of the time and I live out the consequences every day, but it is who
I do not think anything over I just go do what I want and not even think once about what could go wrong or what could go bad or the consequences. It is nice sometimes and usually it helps me do things that I would never even think about doing before, but when it goes bad all the things come crashing down on me. What I say when that happens is, yet again, “screw it”. I live by ‘screw it” in anything and everything that I do, everything. An example of this that you can see and tell is that when I am given an assignment or project for school, I either don’t do it at all, or I do it the morning of or night before it is due. I hate myself for doing this to myself and others day in and day out, but at the end of the day I am who I am and just “screw it”. I feel ashamed to be around my family because they are all successful and living great lives because they put in the work and extra to get where they are in life. They do that while I sit here half-a**ing everything that I do, if I do it at all. For this reason, of how ashamed I am, I am leaving as soon as I am 18 and not going to college. There is one place that I feel good about myself because nobody knows what I do or who I am, that is the