Christian Summary

I searched long and hard for the truth. I didn't completely believe years ago. I was too busy in life, worrying about every little thing, thinking of where I am going in life and how I'm going to get there, focusing on the trials and tribulations that came before me in the midst of all the chaos in fleeting disparity. During the nights I did pray in thanksgiving for all I possessed, my family, friends, health, things like that, had no idea who I was really praying to, just giving thanks because it felt good to be grateful, it can all come crashing down at anytime, I could just lose it all. My life wasn't shaped in the way it's supposed to be but I didn't lose hope.Practically I was ignorant to God's existence, like I wasn't involved enough with him. I still felt like he was there in a way as if I could sense him. I partially believed in him, when I look at nature, the beautiful sky, animals, children and happiness among us. I always wondered if God didn't exist, would any of this exist too? There's just no way all of what we witness and experience is born from random chance, but all designed and created for humanity to embrace. But I did not know him or have any prior knowledge, especially about the Xian faith. But after my episodes of suicidal depression some months ago, he woke me up in a sense, it was the might of his power and grace that washed my depression away. That remarkable day, I was enveloped in an amazing bask of warmth from head to toe unlike anything I ever felt before! It was as if God had took his arms and hugged all the sorrow and pain away. I felt extremely light-headed but quite lucid for the next few days after the event, once everything was cleared it was time to hunt down my savior. ===============>From then on I was stumped and hungry for clarity of what happened to me, it was like a light-bulb flickered and I had to keep it a-lite. I investigated every single foundation in philosophy and religion I could to find my answers to life and