Colors And Crayons In Kindergarten

In Kindergarten, my biggest problem was choosing which color I wanted to color with. My scene was always the same, as I was never the best artist. I would always draw a sun in the top right corner of the page, a giant tree right in the middle, clouds, grass, and a few flowers at the base of the tree. It was always the same; the picture never changed. However, something did change: the colors I used. The first decision I had to make was whether I wanted to use crayons or markers, since using both crayons and markers could ruin the picture. Sometimes crayons are just easier because they don’t stain your hands or your clothes, but markers tend to have brighter colors. My all time favorite crayon was cerulean, which was always perfect for the sky,
as it isn’t too dark or too light. My second favorite blue hued crayon was cyber grape, a lighter option for early morning, bright blue skies.
But then there was battery charge blue, which only came in a marker. It was the perfect in between for the two colors I loved so much, but it was a marker, so was I really prepared to take that step? Would I be able to find the rest of the colors I wanted in marker form? This was a complicated situation, so I normally just stuck to what I knew I would be most comfortable with: crayons. Then moving on from the sky, the next issue I would face was always the color of the flowers. Sure, I could have them be different colors, but even as a 5 year old, I knew that the colors would all have to go together. Cerise was a darker bright pink, making it not too bright for the picture. Then there was shocking pink, which was a mixture between pink and purple. And then there was plum, a darker purple color, which would look amazing with either one of the colors I had already chosen. Being stuck with many amazing colors, I didn’t know which ones to use. So I looked around at everyone’s papers around me and realized that they were almost done! I did what I had to do; I used all the colors I
had. I found that it was better to use a little bit of everything instead of just one, because I may not like the choice I made afterwards. All throughout middle school, I struggled with making decisions, but there was one that always stood out to me: I never could decide what I wanted to eat.
Yes, this sounds like a very common issue, but it is one of the biggest challenges I still have today. As a younger kid, I would always see new things and want to try it, which posed a certain problem because I just couldn’t have everything I saw. I noticed that this had become a problem one night when I went out to dinner with my family. We were at Red Robin looking at our menus and I had decided that I wanted the bacon burger with no mayo, no cheese, and pickles on the side. The waitress was taking an exceptionally long time coming to take our order, which gave me a lot of time to think about that decision. Was that really what I wanted? What if it isn’t good? What is everyone else getting? Looking around at all the tables around us, I saw the most delicious looking foods. One man had a guacamole bacon burger, which was like the bigger, better version of the one I wanted. Another person had the Royal Red Robin burger, which had an egg on top. All over I saw different things, each one looking more delicious than the last, which led me to believe that I was choosing the wrong thing. I decided that I had chosen the bacon burger because I know that I like everything on it and that I might not end up liking something else if I try it, but now is the time to take chances. Before I could decide on something else, waitress came
back to take our order. I asked if they could start on the other side of the table, so that I could see what the rest of my family was getting. Then it was my turn. Feeling very flustered, I told the waitress what I wanted: a bacon burger with no mayo, no cheese, and pickles on the side. My dad asked why I got that, since I order it every time, and I told him that I really just couldn’t decide on anything else. And to this day, every time I go to Red Robin, I always get a bacon burger with no mayo, no cheese, and pickles on the side because when it comes to food, I really just can’t make up my mind, so I tend to just stick to what I know. As senior year is starting up, I’m excited to be enduring my final year of high school. As happy as I am, though, I’m really starting to worry about what I might do with the rest of my life. I know for a fact that I don’t want to limit myself, but I also know that I can’t do everything. I chose my schedule last year thinking about what I might want to have under my belt when I start college, but now that it’s all happening, it is beginning to stress me out. Is this going to be what college is like? Am I making the right decisions for myself? While I am never really that sure about any of my decisions, when I really make up my mind, I am completely ready to go with it. And that is why I know I am making the right choice when I chose to apply to college, because I never really second guessed that decision. I know that I want to further my education and I know that I want to do great things with my life. Now I just have to really believe in myself and believe that I somewhat know what I’m doing. Because while I still might not know what engineering I want to study, or where I might want to live when I grow up, I do know that that is what I want to do with my life and I do know that I am making the right choice.