Edna's Quotes From 'The Awakening'

This quote from Edna makes me think she felt astray from herself for a long time. In the first sentence, Edna states she’s easily able to give everything else to her children. The unessential, and money, yet the one thing she declines to give is herself. Usually a mother would want to give everything plus the whole world to their child, however the last sentence displays Edna’s desperateness to finally get a grasp at what she has been missing for a long time. Edna’s character from the beginning of the story seemed as if she was unhappy, so it’s of no surprise. From her crying alone at night to her sudden rebellious comment to her husband you can infer that she’s been holding something to herself. This quote peers into how Edna truly feels on
the inside about herself. Edna has always been accustomed to keep her thoughts and emotions to herself. It’s almost as if Robert serves as her port to her to her newfound self. With him she feels herself becoming Edna again.
My question would be Kate Chopin – What kept Edna from not knowing herself for so long? Is it the fact that she keeps her emotions and thoughts bottled up deep down for so long that it prevented her from realizing who she really is?