Good Bye Roland

Hey, I know we haven’t talked to each other or seen each other in a while, but I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately and I want you to know I miss you. I regret what happened. I want to see you again. I just miss you. I just miss you. I miss you. It is so strange that someone I knew so well, is now a total stranger to me. That sometimes I go entire days without thinking about you. Most of the time I let myself forget because it is easier. But I find something, a photo, a gift, and the stupid love letters we used to give to each other. The full weight of what is being tossed crushes down on me. Part of me wants to see you again, hold you again, and all of those feelings become empty thought. When I look back at it now, remembering that love isn’t always what it seems. It is just so easy to forget, but this isn’t regret. We had our reasons for ending it and they were as valid as ever. But back at the start, back when it all began, we didn’t need any reasons to fall in love. We just did. The reasons came at the end…
Everything since then has been about reasons and that’s good. That means that one day, I’ll find someone I won’t say good bye to. But.. But a part of me just misses someone; and having them love you back. That’s all. I guess what I’m saying is, I hope things are great with you. I hope everything is great. I hope everything is great. I hope you found a love that’s all the things ours couldn’t be. Just a small part of me hopes that you’ll still remember what it was like before all the reasons and that you miss me too.

Mamoon Elghalaieni
2/2/14.