Growing Up Monologue

Hi I am chi chi, people have been asking me why I call myself (SAM) socially awkward misfit, it’s because so far my life has been different in so many ways. Growing Up was a challenge because no one understood me, some people thought I was just weird and others called me lazy. (as in him no fit fight)

Have you ever been bullied and helpless? I have.

As a kid I always had a low self-esteem, something that both my friends and my family didn’t understand at that time. Even now that I am grown I still suffer it just that I understand it better and I am matured to handle it better now. Growing up I didn’t know what was wrong with me, most things other kids would easily do, I shy away from them, a kid I’m way stronger than can bully me and I
Seriously this boy came from nowhere slapped me and said “nyuo anwo ka awo gbarie gi isi” asin shit bee make bee bite you. I stood there crying The beginning: being bullied and how it all started

couldn’t do jack. Asin, assuming I decided to fight back I might have killed the boy but shit, I cried instead. This is how it was for years running away from fight, getting bullied by my fellow kids.

Now I can’t exactly point to what I would say is the cause of the low self-esteem, but I have an idea. In my case I would say my relationship with my parents and my siblings. Don’t get me wrong my dad was the greatest dad I had, my mum was also cool. But like all humans they had there flaws. We are seven children in our family, five older step siblings and one younger sister. Now I didn’t grow up with my older brothers and sisters, in fact I never knew they existed up until I was around seven to ten years old. Even at that they breeze in and out so I never had a real family relationship with them. Then my dad, lol though he’s late now I still miss him. (Writing this I’m already crying) My dad married twice in his life time that is, his first wife died and he remarried my mum. You won’t believe this my oldest brother and sister is old enough to be my dad lol. My mum and dad had me and my sister at an old age. You get where I am getting at? I never had that fatherly bonding I mean the one the younger fathers give to their children. My dad tried his possible