Habit Breaker: Hard Mode

Habit Breaker: Hard Mode I’d like to say I’m an extremely responsible individual. I’m known to be the reliable one in my family and amongst friends as well. My friends tell me if I can get angry over something then it’s worth getting angry over, that’s how rare it is to see me upset about anything. So I spent a few days trying to remember when I tell myself “I need to” to think about how I actually felt. I found that it was so hard to not do what I told myself “I needed to do” even if I didn't want to do it. I can procrastinate a task until its deadline but I will have it done 99% of the time. So I found it really almost impossible to not do something and let myself be “not responsible” for once. I have an example of this, it’s not the greatest example but it’s funny to me. It was the end of the day, I got myself all comfortable in the corner of my bed and decided I was going to watch television and catch up on some shows I recorded with the DVR machine. My fiance and I had the window open all day because the air was nice out and we decided to let it in. So about 5 minutes after I sit down and am situated I start hearing rain pouring down outside. All I can think of is the wind is blowing and water is going to come onto our stuff by the window. There’s no screen in this window either because that’s where the air conditioner goes so I still haven’t put the screen back on yet! I thought to myself “I need to close that window before everything gets wet” but I really didn't want to get up, due to being tired and it’s rare that I relax because I’m such an anxious person about having everything done that I need to be done. I sat there for ten minutes trying not to notice the sound of the rain, the wind blowing, and the fact that the window was still open. I couldn't even pay attention to the TV until I finally went and closed it. So I learned and thought of at this time that a lot of people have a hard time being responsible. I have a hard time not being responsible