If You Ever Read This Know That You Changed Me Analysis

If You Ever Read This, Know That You Changed Me It's so hard to only feel one particular emotion for extended period of time. Life is symmetrically separated by a thin line, one side is beautiful and the other is full of horror. My life is not in any way symmetrical. The pieces are not split equally, there is no pattern, only different shapes stitched back together to form one again. I would not let anyone help put back the pieces of my life together, because I thought I’d mold myself. That's what I thought I could do, but certain people come into your life and change the way you view things. One person changed me and I believe the change was deeply rooted by the way he treated me, his positivity and how he treated others. Meeting people
Approximately 6 months passed and we started talking again. I got to know him better and we easily became friends this time. Our friendship grew strong because we both play guitar, love photography and listened to the same music. Inclusively, he was a very outgoing person, a naturally gifted musician who I thought was the Kurt Cobain of this era. I use to laugh at that thought but he was actually really good at both drums and guitar. He once sent me a video of him playing a song he wrote and it said, “I hope to find the girl that's right for me, I can't wait to sing this to you”. Anytime I was sad he would cheer me up with songs. He treated me like no one else had ever treated me and always made it clear that I was very important to him. It was difficult to believe that a guy could treat a girl with respect, but he was definitely an exception and not the pervert I thought he was. Never did he mention anything out of the way, instead he was a gentleman, always making it clear that I was a big part of his life and that he cared for me endlessly. It was at that point that I started feeling strong emotions for this guy. Not planned or expected, but I tried to brush it off. I didn't need distractions and love only lead straight to heartbreak, but god, I falling for him and the way he treated
He confessed that he had a crush on me as well. We were both shy and naïve but mostly afraid that confessing our feelings would ruin our friendship. We decided to give it a try and see how a long distance relationship would work out. After sometime we both decided to stay as friends in order to keep our friendship alive. It was a hard decision, but we knew it was the best thing for both of us. He was too scared of hurting me and it was hard not having him physically there for me. For the first time, I understood that although it hurt not being with him, his friendship was greater than anything else we could have