May 5, 1940
Kowal, Alicja
I have risked my life for this journal. I have stolen this pen in which I could’ve died. I am writing this right in the moon light of the train car. The smell of all things is what makes this scenario so realistic. It is indescribable. There are no buckets to do what needs to be done. I am here sitting in filth that I am sure is not only mine. I don’t understand what is happening to us. I was stripped of all my belongings and ripped from the arms of my best friend. I have a gut feeling that I am not going to see her ever again. …show more content…
I have never felt so alone with so many others around me. I am 7months pregnant and I have only told one person, by accident. I was laying in the bunker and I couldn’t fall asleep. The lady next me stated that if I were to sleep I should sleep on my belly because I will stay warmer. All I said back was “I cannot I am pregnant and I don’t want to harm my child when I am its only safe place.” She was wide awake then “Miss you must not tell anyone about this because they will kill you and that child you are carrying.” I wanted to cry with this news. However I will not show the devil my weakness. This baby is the last thing that I have of my old life. My life before the War and before worrying about Hitler. This baby is the last thing I