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Nevertheless, even though she has physically committed herself he is still mentally “suspended” and trapped between what she wants and who she is. As a result, she represses those thoughts from “r[ising] higher”. This is the pivotal point upon which she consigns herself to follow society’s expectations because she understands that without social rules and stigma, “the world would not exist” and be able to function properly. Her “answering point in…[her] body” instinctually gravitates “towards” following social norms because despite the struggle against it, everyone will eventually cave to the expectations of others. She has become “inflate[d]” by the “inrush” of the external pressures of being part of a society . She realizes that she is finally experiencing the typical emotions, even though she feels removed from the “smiles” and “what it is [supposed to feel like] to be happy”. In spite of that, she feels “doubleness” as if it is not really herself going through the motions – she doesn’t feel true to herself and who she really is but simply sees a reflection of her figure that she can no longer recognise. On her way “hurtling” down, she has flashes of her “own past” that “recede[s]” and she has to make a decision between the light of the “white sun” and the darkness of an endless “dark tunnel”. Ultimately, she focuses on the “bright point at the end” of the tunnel and becomes a small “pebble” in the “bottom of [a big] well”, which is an analogy to her small and insignificant self in a world filled with billions of people. Her metamorphosis is paralleled to that of a rebirth into her new life. She has chosen the light and she is being christened into her new life as an innocent “sweet baby” that is being reborn again from “it’s mother’s belly”. All throughout this process “Buddy” and the “other faces” of society watchfully gaze and “h[a]ng