I know you've been through troublesome times. And I want to let you know that I believe the reason for this is Estella. You see, her lack of feelings and caring gives your attraction for her an inevitable pain. For the reason being she has no feelings, doesn't regard others feelings, & treats you terrible! Essentially, what love & care can be given/shown to a person when there isn't any love or care to give?
Estella has no feelings Pip. She constantly uses your attention for her benefit of using your time and bringing you closer to her. When her feelings stay stable; without upgrade or downgrade. And she doesn't care for you even though you care for her. Open your eyes! Everyone has consulted you on how her feelings aren't there. How she is a revenge plot made by Miss Havisham, lose her and find someone who will treat you well. Someone that can make you happy rather than in remorse constantly.
Estella doesn't regard other people's feelings Pip. She exemplifies a heartless person with no action, nor reaction. She just controls you and treats you like her pet, is this how you want your life to be? Why try when there is not going to be a benefit for you, other than getting hurt for reasons which you should already understand! Estella just wants to break your heart!
Estella treats you terrible Pip. She doesn't stick up for you, nor does she show her family she cares about you. That just means you're not important & don't have a chance with her or her family. And trust me when I say this, release these feelings. & Seek your own retribution from the life of guilt, sorrow, sadness, and non simplistic lifestyle.
In retrospect Pip, your too good fro this girl because you have the general needs to succumb to a human satisfying relationship with another. When Estella doesn't for the reasons being she has no feelings, doesn't regard others feelings, & she treats you terrible! Don't except her heartless self in your life anymore. You deserve better, a person who