I have been playing golf for over eight years now, but always just for fun with my family. Just last summer, I started to play in competitive golf tournaments twice a week. In the first few tournaments, I came close to last, even though I was clearly …show more content…
On the range, I was playing the best I had in my whole life, I was even putting well, which was a big accomplishment for me. I would practice for hours, hitting ball after ball on the range until it was dark, always thinking about how it would be different next time, and how I would be able to overcome the fear of playing in a tournament. After my third round where my anxiety took over, I thought about just quitting competitive golf, because I was not having any fun. Playing in tournaments took the joy out of something that I had loved for so many years, just because I was so caught up in hitting every shot perfectly. For the next few weeks, I took countless lessons, fixing a problem, only to realize that nothing would change on the course. It was the same story every time. I would step onto the first tee, with my hands trembling with fear, the monster infiltrating my body. By the eighteenth hole, I felt normal and I could finally swing freely, but it was too …show more content…
I cleared my mind and just tried to have fun doing what I loved, playing golf. I beat my previous score dramatically, and most of all, I enjoyed myself. I remembered why I had loved golf so much for so long. I was no longer thinking about what would happen if I failed, but rather what would happen if I didn’t. I was able to forget everything, trust my mechanics, and just go out on the course and have fun. Without the fear of failure, I was able to swing freely, and just relax. Ironically, instead of thinking about all my different swing thoughts, I was at my best without any thoughts. When I was able to let go of everything, I could finally be myself and enjoy playing, even on a bad