Moving Out Of My Early Childhood
GROWING OUT OF MY MOTHERS ADDICTION
Your childhood is what essentially shapes how you grow into an adult. We often repeat things we have seen or experienced in our upbringing, and that starts the foundation of the environment we create for ourselves and everyone around us. All eyes are on you, and what your next move will be to show you’re worth more than what you’re given credit for. Looking back at my early childhood, I realize that I was raised in a very strange to others—but wonderful to me—world. At the center of that world was my mother, who was single, addicted to drugs, and—at least to me—the best mom in the world. She’d disappear into her room with the same people who would bounce in and out of our lives. As a youngin, I would stand by that locked door for hours, trying to imagine what was happening on the other side. It took me years to finally figure out what they were doing in there. For a long time, I assumed the adults were having some sort of power nap—they emerged from that room so quiet, so relaxed, yet so cheerful. I felt like I was missing out because even after nights that I'd had a full night's sleep, I was still tired. …show more content…
My mother had an enormous amount of love to give, and most of it went to me. Then my mom introduced me to Roger (her boyfriend) and Hanna (his daughter). I was three and Hanna was six, so it was new—and very different—for either one of us to have to share anything of ours. We moved into two houses while my mom was with Roger. After being kicked out of the first one due to my mom’s neurotic behavior, we found temporary happiness at our second home. A couple months into our new home and it was all being taken away, again. My mom went to jail for a couple months and it was honestly hell for the 5 year girl I was being raised as. I was being forced to live with my grandma, where every single one of those 120 days passed so
Your childhood is what essentially shapes how you grow into an adult. We often repeat things we have seen or experienced in our upbringing, and that starts the foundation of the environment we create for ourselves and everyone around us. All eyes are on you, and what your next move will be to show you’re worth more than what you’re given credit for. Looking back at my early childhood, I realize that I was raised in a very strange to others—but wonderful to me—world. At the center of that world was my mother, who was single, addicted to drugs, and—at least to me—the best mom in the world. She’d disappear into her room with the same people who would bounce in and out of our lives. As a youngin, I would stand by that locked door for hours, trying to imagine what was happening on the other side. It took me years to finally figure out what they were doing in there. For a long time, I assumed the adults were having some sort of power nap—they emerged from that room so quiet, so relaxed, yet so cheerful. I felt like I was missing out because even after nights that I'd had a full night's sleep, I was still tired. …show more content…
My mother had an enormous amount of love to give, and most of it went to me. Then my mom introduced me to Roger (her boyfriend) and Hanna (his daughter). I was three and Hanna was six, so it was new—and very different—for either one of us to have to share anything of ours. We moved into two houses while my mom was with Roger. After being kicked out of the first one due to my mom’s neurotic behavior, we found temporary happiness at our second home. A couple months into our new home and it was all being taken away, again. My mom went to jail for a couple months and it was honestly hell for the 5 year girl I was being raised as. I was being forced to live with my grandma, where every single one of those 120 days passed so