My Life Changing Experience Analysis

[Lantier . Session 1 . Journal]
My Life Changing Experience That Led Me to CCU
My life changed when I became an addict. I was addicted to Meth. It is not a road anyone would want to go down, but I chose this road for a long time. Let's just say it led me down a bad path to nowhere. I lost my dignity, my job and my self- respect. My family didn't want to be around me, and that hurt me so deeply. I felt so alone at times, and often begged God to take me.
It all started when my grandfather passed away. He raised me from birth, and his passing left an empty hole in my soul . My life felt incomplete. If things could not get any worse they did. One week after my grandfather's death I loss the two children I had been raising. They were my friends kids that I volunteered to keep while she got
herself better.
I raised them for eighteen months. The baby was eighteen months when they took him away. I was in delivery room, for his birth , and cut his cord. The five year old is my niece she was a joy to each of my days . Her grandmother was my aunt, and has now went to her resting place with God. My heart breaks for all the loss
I have suffered in such a little time . All this is what led me to make the worse choice in life . It led me to Meth.
Do any of you know how I feel? I cried out to God to help me. Please Lord save me from this deep hole I'm in. Deliver me from this evil I have put myself in. It took a long time of praying for help. Praying for an understanding why so much was taken at once from me. I really needed to understand why. Well God showed me that everyone has to die eventually. My grandfather lived a great life, and was ready to move on to his final resting place. He had spoken to me on numerous occasions before his death. I just never listened to his words. I was afraid. God opened my ears and my heart to know my grandfather is in good hands. He assured me we would meet
again one day , and that this is not the end. He helped me see that the children will be ok. I know I will see them again in His time. God opened my eyes to see through Him I have a future. All I have to do is trust Him and believe in Him.
Now I am a college student studying to receive my Bachelor degree in
Psychology. How proud my grandfather would be. What an accomplishment and honor to receive. I can stand tall and with pride of myself . I am a recovering addict , and this I can say with pride and without shame . I overcame one of the hardest things in life with God's help. I am now living out my dreams to become an addictions counselor after my graduation. This horrible thing I had to go through led me to Colorado
Christian University. Where I will pursue my life dream and become a graduate in the field of Psychology. That will lead me to great things with God by my side , and to help others battling this same disease . What a humbling experience to encounter and rewarding moment in life to be a part of .

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Thank you God for changing my life and bringing me to this university. I know this is my chance to make a difference in not only my life , but in so many lives through Your guidance we will accomplish amazing things to come .