Perfectly Imperfect
Perfectly imperfect!
I’m Hime, a senior high school, who had a dream and tried to make it happen but, it seems like time and chances don’t want me to reach my dreams. I cry without tears in front of all people and laugh with drams of tears when I’m alone. Could you imagine that a big childlike girl puts her hands up while fighting? I’m trying to survive while I’m half alive, and struggling to live although thorns and spikes hug me so tight, while deeply breathing.
“Nobody’s perfect.” No, that’s not true. I’m perfect, perfectly imperfect! I commit mistakes, I make wrong moves, and I decide a bad decision, PERFECTLY! I don’t mean it, but I did it. Most of them hate me because I did it, but I don’t really mean it. It hurts, you know that? To be hated by everybody because of that unmeant mistake. I miss being loved!
I dreamt going away from here but, where will I go when everybody sees me badly? When every move I make, there’s a red eye monitoring me? They hate me, but they constantly notice me, and see me with their eyes up! You know what I mean? If yes, please tell me because I don’t know what I’m saying. That’s how poor I am in knowledge. I don’t feel any brain cells running on my head. Maybe, that’s the reason why I always do wrong. I’m not thinking. I’m a fool. I’m a big mistake made by my parents!
So, can anyone make me feel good? Make me think that I’m not a trash? Make me realize that I am the leader who leads, not who follows? PLEASE. That stupid ONE mistake changed everything! Tell me, it’s not too late… to change everything and make it right… tell me, please lie to me!
I dreamt of making my visions happen, but it can’t be happened. The reason why is, I’m not able to make it happen because, they make feel that I’m not worth making it happen. I am negatively criticized in everything I do. Tell me, how am I gonna make my dream happen in that case? Nah ah! There are so many obstacles and walls which try to stop me! How can I see the world behind my walls?
I’m Hime, a senior high school, who had a dream and tried to make it happen but, it seems like time and chances don’t want me to reach my dreams. I cry without tears in front of all people and laugh with drams of tears when I’m alone. Could you imagine that a big childlike girl puts her hands up while fighting? I’m trying to survive while I’m half alive, and struggling to live although thorns and spikes hug me so tight, while deeply breathing.
“Nobody’s perfect.” No, that’s not true. I’m perfect, perfectly imperfect! I commit mistakes, I make wrong moves, and I decide a bad decision, PERFECTLY! I don’t mean it, but I did it. Most of them hate me because I did it, but I don’t really mean it. It hurts, you know that? To be hated by everybody because of that unmeant mistake. I miss being loved!
I dreamt going away from here but, where will I go when everybody sees me badly? When every move I make, there’s a red eye monitoring me? They hate me, but they constantly notice me, and see me with their eyes up! You know what I mean? If yes, please tell me because I don’t know what I’m saying. That’s how poor I am in knowledge. I don’t feel any brain cells running on my head. Maybe, that’s the reason why I always do wrong. I’m not thinking. I’m a fool. I’m a big mistake made by my parents!
So, can anyone make me feel good? Make me think that I’m not a trash? Make me realize that I am the leader who leads, not who follows? PLEASE. That stupid ONE mistake changed everything! Tell me, it’s not too late… to change everything and make it right… tell me, please lie to me!
I dreamt of making my visions happen, but it can’t be happened. The reason why is, I’m not able to make it happen because, they make feel that I’m not worth making it happen. I am negatively criticized in everything I do. Tell me, how am I gonna make my dream happen in that case? Nah ah! There are so many obstacles and walls which try to stop me! How can I see the world behind my walls?