Personal Narrative: I Believe In Change

I believe in change. Not changing who you are on the outside or fixing who you are on the inside; but changing to be the best version of yourself. Living up the your own expectations to be the best and only person you could imagine yourself being. About 5 years ago, I realized I wasn’t the person I wanted to be. I would gaze at myself and just stare at that little fat girl staring back at me. No one ever knew I thought or felt this way. If I ever called myself ugly or fat I would be lectured about how I should never think like that. So I kept it to myself. I was picked on by what seemed like everyone. Every Time I went to a dance. Every Time I went to a football game. There was always many kids who made sure to crumble my self confidence to
I was doing the dishes and you know being me I said to my grandpa “Can we go get a cupcake?” He turned swiftly towards me with tears in his eyes and said “you don't need a cupcake” at first I was thinking how could he say something like that but then I continued to listen. “When I'm dead and gone, I want to look down at you smiling and having the time of your life. You're still young you have time to change your eating habits while you can unlike me. I care about you more than myself and giving you fuel to become your own worst enemy isn't how I'm going to show it. I stood there in shock. Not shock because he said something like that. But shock because the truth just smacked me right upside the head. I looked him in the eyes and said “I'm going to fix myself to make you proud. He grabbed me tightly and whispered in my ear “don't do it for me do it for yourself.”it was a hard adjustment to get used to but I was more ready than ever. I joined the swim team for the first time because I knew it would be something I could do for a while. I switched from hot lunch to cold lunch so there wouldn't be as many “fake” foods. I learned to discipline myself and my eating habits to take me to where I was hoping to