Personal Narrative: My Learning Disability

The fact of it all is that there have been many nights that I have cried myself to sleep wondering if I could one day, be able to get a grip on my learning disability. “Will I ever learn to deal with my learning disability? Why must I have to work hard at school work and yet feel like I have not gotten anywhere. Why me?” I have cried out. The hardest part of going back to school is dealing with this disability. I have the hardest time comprehending reading assignments and spelling is a huge chore on any written assignment, which makes me want to just throw my hands up and give up at times. My learning disability makes reading very difficult for me; well, more like a nightmare. To give you an idea of what it is like, when
I spell so badly that there are times when even the “spell check” can’t comprehend what word I am trying to spell. I end up trying to use a different word which I can spell. I always try to laugh this off a little bit, but honestly it is horrifying to me. I try to take notes in class, but words get misspelled and later, when I get home, I have yet another puzzle that I am piecing together. This one is sometimes easier to put together since I am the one that wrote them and I can recall what was being said in class to help me figure it out. For instance, I will take notes from what the teacher is saying, but I misspell most of the words that I hear. When I get home and try to go over them it is a little difficult to determine what word I was trying to spell, but I close my eyes and remember what the instructor was telling us and I can figure out most, if not all the words that I have misspelled. However, it still makes for a hard situation for me sometimes because at times I can’t recall the word I was trying to spell. I have had some tell me that I need a dictionary. I would love to use a dictionary but that is another puzzle to me. I really have a hard time looking up a word when I am really not sure what letters are in it plus it is another jig-saw puzzle to place together. I feel like I am a complete idiot at times. I mean, what person spells so badly that she can’t understand