Ptsd Reflection

Post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is a mental health disease that is triggered by a traumatic event. I have been struggling with PTSD, major depression, and anxiety for the past seven years of my life. It stinks to have to live with a mental illness. There’s so many people that just push them aside and just think they’re all make believe. They aren’t in my shoes. They haven’t been through what I’ve been through. What triggered my PSTD was that my father passed away when I only ten years old. Soon after he passed was when I started going downhill.
All through sixth grade, his death just didn’t seem real to me so it didn’t hit me that hard. When I started seventh grade, I started self harming. It wasn’t that bad when I first started. Nobody knew about it, it was just my little secret at that point. Through eighth grade, it was just progressively got
Junior year was when I lost my two best friends. Me and the girls had been friends for 6 years just decided to complete walk out of my life and that destroyed me. That caused me really spiral out of control. I started drinking a lot and I was doing any drug I could get my hands on. A few weeks later, was my last suicide attempt. I just didn’t want to be here anymore. I didn’t have the will to live. I just couldn’t handle being in my own head anymore. And after that was my wake up call. I stopped drinking and I quit the drugs, I found something that had really changed my life for the better and helped me find the light at the end of the tunnel. Music has always been a super huge part of my life. I’ve always turned to music in the worst time of my life and junior year was when I really needed it. A band called real friends got me out of my slump. That last time I tried to kill myself was when they inspired me to stay alive. Their music helped me sober up and find where I needed to be in life. They really kept me going my junior year and they still help me to this very