strugge for life

Struggle for life

March 9, 1999. That’s the date when my father was pass away. This is an unforgetable moment in my life.
Before he passed away, my father had already been treated at Baptist Hospital in the city of Kediri, East Java, due to illness. And my father has always been accompanied by my mother in the hospital.
Only one thing that I can still remember clearly until now where my father was in the hospital insisted on returning home. He showed that he was completely healed although he still looks weak and pale.
Upon arrival at home I greeted with beautiful arrangement flower that I arangged myself. I gave it to my father and my father smiled and he expressed it by words 'thank you my daughter'.
The next day when at that time coincided with my birthday to eleven-year-old on February 22, 1999. We held a small party at home. I'm very grateful and very happy that my father at the time was healthy and we could get together again at home. And to this day I can still remember especially on my birthday, there was always sweet as well as sad memories in my mind.
A day later, I could still remember that time at 17.00, he looks pale and hard to breath and eventually was immediately took to the same hospital. My father went straight to the ICU until finally on March 9, 1999 my father left us for ever when it happened I was so young where I really wanted to be pampered like children in general.
And until finally the pale body of my father came in the funeral home. Greeted with louds sounds of my mother and also my two sisters crying. The day was like the end for me. Sadness very deep. Second by second I passed with a sense of dispiritedness. Until the end I carried away from the body of my father because I almost fainted with grief I suffered. My world was felt so dark. I really lost the figure of a father.
And after my father was passed away, our economic life has changed. Our life being worse because of financial shortage. That condition forced my mom to earn money alone and it made her sick and treated in the hospital. That situation remembered me of my father when my mom being treated in the hospital and I was really afraid and not able to face the situation like that. I am afraid if my mom got a serious illness. But that situation also made me close to God. Everyday I pray for the health of my mom and praise the Lord, God answered my prayers quickly.
I am very grateful to God that at that time my mom just suffered of typhus and dengue fever and thank to God that she always be healty till now.
Since then I became increasingly concerned about health especially concern about the healthy of mom. I always set alarm on the phone and in the calendar table to remind my mom to do general check up regularly. I want to do anything to make my mom happy, thus she will not get sick.
That memories also made me rely on God. I believe that whatever occured in my life God always loves me and my family. And also I am so thank to God that God has allowed me to receive this life lesson earlier and I proud to be me because since the death of my father I became more independent, I do things that I can do. Besides I became love my family much more, I love Mom and my sisters. I also could pluck a lesson to appreciate the time. I always appreciate it by sharing the happiness with the people we love.

the sign of peace