Summary Of Leah's Addiction

With both of her parents passing within a year of each other, Leah must navigate life without her loved ones by her side. As the days go by, it becomes harder for Leah to get out of bed and complete her daily tasks. Grief is never ending, and she is constantly asking the universe why she deserves such punishment. (0:24) Leah enters a very negative headspace and often uses drugs to cope with her trauma. She isn’t sure if it is helping her or just keeping her in a dissociative state. Her parents were addicts that showered her in unconditional love but couldn’t bear to face their own past, sober. Leah was aware that her parents used drugs, specifically narcotics, to cope with their pain and she swore to never follow their behavior. She witnessed
How could they stop their habits when that’s all they ever knew? 1:07 Leah has fallen into the same addiction that her parents suffered from. She wakes up every day, ready to numb herself and suppress any emotion that tries to escape the surface. It feels as if she is floating through life waiting for change, but can never be fully present at any moment. (1:30) Disassociating is the only coping mechanism that Leah knows, and she isn’t hesitant to realize that she is becoming the person she promised she would never be. Anyone who has reached out to her has been ignored and she enjoys isolating herself because that is what she believes she deserves. (2:32) Leah is overwhelmed with anger toward her parents for enabling the generational trauma that she must now take on singlehandedly. However, this anger helps her understand why they chose drugs over discovering the root of their pain. The feeling that she gets from narcotics is superior to any other feeling she has ever experienced. Why would she ever be sober when the feeling of being high is enough to make her forget about all her