friction between the two and the eventual breakup. The novel spaces out these two stories by using alternating chapters for each story, thus creating two stories that progress at the same pace, but seem to mirror each other. Conrad's story starts off with a suicidal and depressed teen who just got out of the hospital and tells the tale of his recovery, whereas Calvin's story starts with a healthy marriage and just worries about his emotionally unstable son, but as the story progresses his marriage disintegrates and eventually ends with Beth leaving him, although they do not discuss an official divorce. We can see that Conrad's story seems to start on a dismal tone, as if he lived in a hopeless and dying world, he gradually gets better and returns to a rejuvenated world. His father's tale seems to take the opposite course however, starting with a perfect marriage, although maybe not a perfect world, it crumbles and decays until there is nothing left ad he is left standing on the remains of what used to be a happy marriage, though he also seems to get closer to his son by the end of the novel. This shows that this s a novel of fertility and reconstruction. Metaphorically, the story starts in a decimated landscape and explains how the characters try to rebuild and recover. It seems in a way to criticize society, who, in such catastrophic circumstances spend more time trying to point fingers and find who is to blame the they do trying to reconstruct and repair. The story shows that although they start in a ruined world, it is possible to rebuild and recover. This novel could also be interpreted as a sick and inversed coming-of-age novel. The story starts after most of the action has already taken place. Jordan dies and Conrad attempts suicide before the story even starts, making it so that the characters have already had traumatic and life changing experiences and have already felt intense pain and sorrow and throughout the story strive to return to the moment of childish innocence in Conrad's case or back to a "happily ever after" family ending they had before Jordan' death in Calvin's case. This is also a memory novel. Judith uses flashbacks to recall most of the action in the story, rarely telling it as it happens. This not only allows for suspenseful situations, for we hear of Jordan's death in the beginning, but we never realize what happens until after Conrad blurts out the story to Dr. Berger, but it also allows the reader to imagine his own version of the incidents, for, memories are never exact narrations, and tend to be exaggerated or incomplete, as it is in human nature to exaggerate and/or forget, not to mention the character can only relate what he remembers. Being memories, they are sentimental and somewhat unrealistic, as Tom explains in the Glass Menagerie. However, we also see that some events cannot be properly understood in the present, and it isn't until Conrad looks back upon his brother's death with Dr. Berger that he can analyze it and realize how it happened and that it truly was not his fault.
The story begins with a confused teenager who identifies himself as Conrad dealing with something which really resembles paranoia. We then learn that he has just returned from the hospital after attempting suicide. Conrad goes off to school and gets teased by the others about seeming to notice a certain new girl (Jeanine Pratt) a little too much, and he seems to struggle to maintain sanity with just that comment, showing the reader that he is having some serious problems. The story then switches to Calvin, his father, whom starts by thinking to himself that he cannot really be accused of being a bad father, since, being an orphan, he had no example to follow. This train of thought stems from his worrying about his son's anti-social attitude since he got back from the hospital and trying to sort out his fatherly duties. He spends the chapter unsure of himself, wondering if he is really happy or successful and whether he should send his son to see a psychologist, the pushing his son to go see Dr. Berger. The story ten switches back to Conrad. At school, it seems as though all the teachers and students are nervous when talking to him, as if they didn't know what to expect. He says that his choir class he can "let his guard down". Jeanine Pratt happens to also be in his choir class and starts talking to him, but, taken by surprise, he just kind of stands there dumbly. He then goes off to swim after school, and is stopped by the coach after practice who asks him if he is having fun and getting enough sleep, suggesting that he does not NEED to stay on the team. As if to rub it in, on his way home, Stillman, a guy on the swim team who is always picking a fight with Conrad, starts telling him about how much better the two sophomores are than Conrad, probably trying to get him angry. The story switches back to Calvin again, and we see him having dinner with his wife in a restaurant, where they argue about whether or not the family should go on a Christmas vacation this year. He later talks with a fried at work, who annoys him by offering advice with what to do with Conrad. At work, he thinks back to the fight he had with Beth, revealing it to us in a flashback. She accused him of asking too many wrong questions without asking the important ones, like whether or not Conrad wanted to go to London. He then thinks back to his mentor, who helped him become the tax attorney he is now. He then remembers not feeling real sadness when his mother died due to his very young age and really only experiencing it for the first time when his mentor died. Conrad goes and meets with the good humored Dr.
Berger, his new psychologist, who asks him to return twice a week and to this comment, Conrad thinks to himself: "there are no choices; it only looks as if there are." However, he later realizes when he is with Karen that his time with Dr. Berger is helping him, saying it is the only time in the week he can feel better. As he talks to Karen, he seems to get angry and almost jealous of the fact that she seems to be doing better and that she has very little time to spare for him due to her participation in a play. Coming back to Calvin, he tries to make small talk with his son, but Conrad makes it clear he doesn't feel like talking. Beth then drags him to a party where, after drinking a bit and listening to lawyer jokes, he is asked a bit about Conrad. When he lets it slip that Conrad is seeing a psychologist, Beth instantly takes him home, accusing him of violation of privacy, though she refuses to say
who's. Conrad eventually quits the swimming team, feeling he has enough of the people on the swim team, and gets into a fight with Lazenby, one of his best friends, but does not seem to feel anything, shrugging it off and saying they were his brother's friends anyways. He hides the fact tat he quit the swim team from his parents and spends his time at the library instead. He then stops a bit to talk to Jeanine who compliments him on his singing ability, which, since he regards her as a talented singer, feels proud of himself and asks her to go have a coke with him somewhere. At the café they go to, they talk about all sorts of things, until Jeanine realizes she has to run to unlock the house for her brother, and asks if Conrad as any brothers or sisters, to which he answers he doesn't. Beth reveals to them that when she was talking to Lazenby's mom, she learned that Conrad had quit the swim team a month ago and ad not talked to the about it, which leads to a lot of questioning about where he has been, what he has been doing, when he planned on telling them and why he hadn't told them yet, to which he responds he might have told them if he thought they cared. Conrad goes on to say that the only reason Beth cares at all is because someone else knew it before her. It is obvious the two of them do not get along much. Berger tells Conrad to stop waiting on his mother to forgive him for his suicide attempt, since it shall never happen, even suggesting that the suicide attempt may have been to try and one-up his mother. They later talk a little about girls, and Berger suggests that he try to go out with Jeanine or Karen, and when Conrad says he doesn't know how to act, Berger simply says that he'll figure it out. Conrad decides to try it and calls Jeanine, and, to his surprise, she eagerly sets up a date with him. The date goes surprisingly well for him, and ends with them kissing and agreeing to go out again the next week. That next week, Jeanine cries about the fact she had hoped her parents would get back together, but that was not going to happen since her mother was dating even before they got a divorce. Conrad comforts her, feeling both strong and needed. When Calvin and Beth are in Houston, Calvin thinks a lot about the fights he has been having with Beth, and her need to keep appearances, make it seem like everything is fine in the Jarrett household. He specifically thinks back to Buck's funeral, when she did and didn't cry. Beth truly appears to be heartless, yet obsessed with appearances. During this time, Conrad feels he is doing much better, getting new friends and dating, until he reads about Karen's suicide in the newspaper, which sends him into a state of shock. He spends the day as if in a trance, and thinks back to Bucks death, showing it to us in a flashback. He blames himself, but at the same time blames Buck for letting go of the boat. Mentally and emotionally exhausted, he requests an emergency meeting with Dr. Berger and has trouble even focusing on driving as he goes there. Once there, Berger pushes Calvin to "let it all out" and Conrad blurts out his brother's death and how he feels responsible, thinking that he might have been able to save him, although Berger tells him to stop blaming himself for something he didn't do, and that there was no way he could have saved him. Meanwhile, Calvin and Beth get into a big fight about their son. Beth accuses Calvin of always inserting Conrad into their discussions and says he blames her for Conrad's suicide attempt, although Calvin denies that. She then says that the suicide attempt was simply a way for Conrad to show his parents what he was capable of, though Calvin disagrees completely. Calvin realizes he has to say or do something important to save their marriage and tries to figure out what. He decides to suggest counseling, an idea that convinces Beth she has to leave him. Upon hearing this news, Conrad starts criticizing her, but Calvin defends her, saying he criticizes easily but does not take too well to criticism. Conrad then apologizes and says his father he should criticize him more, and they end up telling each other how much they love each other. Conrad also gets together with Jeanine again, and after chatting a little bit, they go have sex, and afterwards talk a bit about Conrad's suicide attempt, which he says he does not know why he did, except that since he did not believe in God he did not believe God would punish him. They relax and Conrad realizes just how good things are looking now. The book ends with Conrad and his father living together in a new house. Conrad decides to go see Lazenby and try to apologize and fix their friendship. He invites him to go golfing, and Lazenby accepts. The book ends on an optimistic note for Conrad, with him mending his friendship and his life, ending his counseling with Dr. Berger, though they agree to remain friends.