I grew up in a very conservative, restricted family household. I still remember the many times I thought to myself why my siblings and I couldn’t go to another place other than church. Or why the many kids in my neighborhood where allowed, of what it seemed at that time, the million opportunities to enjoy their childhood. From a young age I was to obey and do what I was told. To not deviate from my parents’ wishes, which were for me to be good Christian and someone who always did well by school and society. As a got older I realized that our …show more content…
I didn’t tell them I had apply, and I certainly didn’t tell them I got accepted. But when the day came, all they could say was that I could always go back to Salem State. That there was no way I had enough money, and if lucky God was going to protect me from all the rape that happens across campuses. It was this constant bitterness and disapproval towards my decision that to further understand their though process, yet believed me when I say that I still can’t comprehend why they could just be proud of me.
I see that I acted selfishly, and that I was very unsuccessful in thinking about my section and the organization. I also see how my siblings could lead an even harder path to college if this something that my parents are made aware of. I didn’t think of how my actions could negatively impact others then, and I don’t want to do the same for my four siblings or anyone now.
This was an isolated event, and because I failed doesn’t mean I’m a failure. Yet having my parent’s strict idealism predict my return to the university is a scary thought, as this gives them every proof they would ever need to justify that college is precisely what they predicted.
Please understand that it was an arduous path that lead here, and I wouldn’t want all the hard work to be taken away with no