This is the first hint in the story that he is not who he portrays himself as. This miscommunication continues to bother Gabriel throughout the night. He second guesses his speech he has prepared for later on in the night and cannot focus on anything but. He shows his worry about what the others will think of him. "They would think that he was airing his superior education. He would fail with them just as he had failed with the girl in the pantry" (“The Dead”), ("Analysis of the Dead by James Joyce "). He is not focused at all on the party and insteade of listening anf being in tune with his aunts song or carrying out the conversations with people, hes concered with his speech. Gabriel is aware of is education being better than that of most of the people the aprty and begins to wonder if his speech is to elevated beyond their comprehension. “He was undecided about the lines from Robert Browning for he feared they would be above the heads of his hearers” (“The Dead”). Here his insecurities become more and more evident and his constant attempts to hide them can be seen in …show more content…
This thought process is seen when he looks into the mirror and sees, "a ludicrous figure, acting as a pennyboy for his aunts, a nervous well-meaning sentimentalist, orating to vulgarians and idealizing his own clownish lusts, the pitiable fatuous fellow he had caught a glimpse of in the mirror". This realization also brings truth about himself, he is not who he thought he was. He has tried for so long to persuade this false image of himself. He thinks so rigchousley of himself when in fact, he realizes that he is more dead than alive and now he is assuming his absurd and ephemeral existence. The moment he is looking through the window is the moment when he starts to want to change who he is. Thinkng hes running out of time to actually start living instead of just going through thte motions of