the fault in our stars

In The Fault in Our Stars by John Green, “So of course I tensed up when he touched me. To be with him was to hurt him-inevitably. And that’s what I’d felt as he reached for me: I’d felt as though I were committing an act of violence against him, because I was. I decided to text him. I wanted to avoid a whole conversation about it. Hi, so okay, I don’t know if you’ll understand this but I can’t kiss you or anything. Not that’d necessarily want to, but I can’t. This paragraph was confusing, and interesting to me at the same time because on the last page Hazel Grace had said that she really liked Augustus (who she was texting). But, Hazel Grace seemed to change her mind quickly, which was really interesting to me. I think that Hazel Grace was confused at the moment.
“You don’t have to go to the Support Group,” Mom added. “You don't have to do anything. Except go to school.” She handed me the bear. “I think Bluie can sleep on the shelf tonight,” I said. “Let me remind you that I am more than thirty-three half years old.” Keep him tonight,” she said. “Mom,” I said. “He's lonely,” she said. “Oh my God, mom,” I said. But I took stupid Bluie and kind of cuddled with him as I fell asleep. In this paragraph, I didn’t think that Hazel would like push Bluie away because she just had a breakdown with her parents. Her parents came in her room afterwards and calmed her down, and told her they loved her. I’m guessing that Hazel Grace had Bluie for a while since she was a little girl. I thought that she would take Bluie the first time and say that she loved her mom and dad, but I think she’s pushing away everything and everyone at the moment.

"Honey," my mom said. "What's wrong?" "I'm like. Like. I'm like a grenade. Mom.
I'm a grenade and at some point I'm going to blow up and I would like to minimize the casualties, okay?" My dad tilted his head a little to the side, like a scolded puppy. "I'm a grenade," I said again. "I just want to stay away from people and read books and think and be with you guys because there's nothing I could do about hurting you; you're too invested, so just please let me do that, okay? I'm not depressed. I don't need to go out more. And I can't be a regular teenager, because I'm a grenade." "Hazel," Dad said, and then choked up. He cried a lot, my dad. "I'm going to go to my room and read for a while, okay?" I'm fine. I really am fine; I just want to go to read for a while." In this paragraph Hazel Grace really thinks deep, and the word “grenade” used by her was important because she compared herself to a “grenade”. Grenade means destructive, so Hazel Grace thought of herself as a bomb. Hazel thinks that because she has cancer she is like a bomb that destructs everything and will hurt everything and everyone around her.

“He responded a few minutes later.” Okay. I wrote back. Okay. He responded: Oh, my God, stop flirting with me! I just said: Okay. My phone buzzed moments later. I was just kidding, Hazel Grace. I understand. (But we both know that okay is a very flirty word. Okay is BURSTING with sensuality.) I was very tempted to type okay again, but I pictured him at my funeral, and that helped me text properly. Sorry. In this passage I wonder what the word “okay” really means. Augustus and Hazel were texting each other and most of the replies were “okay”. Also, on the title of the book The Fault in Our Stars it says Okay? Okay?. I think that maybe it might be a symbol that means everything is going to be okay. Okay could be a response that means more than it says. Maybe in the book “okay” to Hazel and Augustus is everything put into one response, and one word.