Especially when she met her real mother, she was able to self-reflect on how it has been for her and the family she grew up with. Yet, there are still moments in her life when she unexpectedly becomes silent, but her response are different. She comes into realization and deeper understanding of what she has been through. In this case, when her and her mother when to shop, and ended up at a cake store, Silence came again, “It was the fat Buddha… A map of his body in golden dough relief. Before I knew it my mother had ordered and paid for one.” (Nguyen, 233) essentially implying that even in her comfort in food, she was silenced her once again simply because her mother was there. She was left in silenced, that she forgot to ask her mother questions that she has been longing to ask for years, she says, “In the end, I left my questions unanswered, I couldn’t comprehend the loss… the silence…” (Nguyen 237) regretting the feeling of being a stranger and a ghost in which she felt regretful that she never really fantasize about meeting her real mother. However, despite the silenced she faced again, she was able to realize something important in her life. She realized how her stepmother had been a great support for her. “I’m very thankful…for the fact that they raised me and Anh.”(Nguyen, 234) essentially realizing the moments that she thought were repressive…