These so called friends who let me down

These so called friends who let me down
Who made me feel as though I would drown?
My heart was broken, like a death to grieve,
These friends of mine, set out to deceive.
We had been friends for many years,
With much laughter, fun and tears,
We'd had good times, but that was past,
Like many things they did not last.
They did not invite me,
The hurt they caused,
They did not ring or call,
I think that just about say's it all.
In my awful dark despair,
I really thought they would care,
A note, a card, or even some flowers,
But they were too mean to even use these powers.
They left me crying and so upset,
How could they, and yet,
"I'm alright" they probably said,
We don't care, we'll go ahead,
They carried on it did not matter,
They all went out for chatter,
No doubt to bitch, to stir and moan,
But they had left me, all alone.
When days were darkest, and self esteem so low,
Calls to Samaritans said it all,

They came through with flying colours,
These friends did not, that's all that matters.
The pain they caused will not go away,
It cuts deep and strong to this day,
To put the phone down on me, screaming abuse,
To lie and try to cover up, Oh God, this is so obtuse.
I did not think I needed to explain,
But my questioning why? Fell in vain,
They tried to say I was over reacting,
They were going to invite me, but did not exactly!
How can people be so mean?
When I was always there so keen,
They did not deserve me as a friend,
I finally realized this in the end.
No peace in their lives will they ever find,
They let a friend down badly, not kind!
They bitched and moaned about each other,
This I will not miss, and don't want the bother.
I am better, kinder, they will ever be,
Love, respect, they no longer have for me,
To me they are forever gone,
And in my life they no longer belong.
A dignified silence is all that remains,

I'm free now from all the pain,
I realize now they were not real friends,
But used me for their own selfish ends.
I really think they will, miss