To grow up essay

To grow up

I wish I had’nt grown up so fast. It’s just too much, too sudden. I feels as if it was only yesterday that I had no worries. I could look back and have little, to no regrets. I didn’t feel as if I had to please someone, to coexist with them. Life now is full of responsibilities. Grades. Friends. Parents. Being a teenager in general. When I was little, the future was so far away. I didn’t spend very long thinking about who and what I wanted to be. I can think about that later, was the mantra running in my head.
Now, everything is very close. I didn’t even realize the journey I’ve been through, It was just the way it was. The world I once knew has lost its innocence. It has gotten cynical. More cynical than my parents can remember. My eyes have opened. As soon as I grew up, it wasn’t the same. All the people around me is chasing popularity over real friends.
True friends are harder to find. They’re hidden behind the cautiousness of all teenagers. What to say, think and who to talk to. How can you know for sure, that someone is not going to like what you said and then start a rumor? Who will want to betray you?
When you are a teenager there will be times when you’ll be surrounded by hundreds of fake friends, they will talk behind your back, they will lie to your face, and they will not truly like you. Not for whom you really are. There might even be times when you won’t have any friends at all, but that’s just a step you have to overcome to figure out who will be the ones you are going to grow old with. The ones you can still laugh at the crazy stuff you did together. Maybe you will find them later in your life. It’s never too late to make true friends. However, it still hurts to have no one, even if only for a short while.
Growing up hurts, it’s full of nostalgia. I remember the old cartoons I used to laugh my butt off at, the times when I lay in bed, listening to a bedtime story. Having that pure untouched mind. The hardest decision was what ice