Twenty One Pilots: A Short Story
So there's this chick that I've practically liked since the 7th grade.
It's fucking weird, I know. (Currently: I'm 15 and in the 9th grade.)
But for some reason I just like, mentally CAN NOT get over her.
We'll call her, Jenny for the purposes of hiding the identity of the actual person here, for the privacy of them and to keep the small ammount of respect that she has left for me. So anyways, she's legitimate perfection to me, beautiful blonde hair, amazingly colored eyes that occasionally change shade, great sense of humor, great personality, wonderful taste in music. Just. I don't know man. We're so much alike.
We both feel the same about nearly everything. We listen to the same bands, have the same opinons, beliefs, wishes, ect.
To me, looking at her, was like looking at a piece of art. …show more content…
Listening to her was like listening to a masterpiece, like uh
Kendrick Lamar's "To Pimp A Butterfly" or Twenty One Pilots'
"Regional At Best".
She's just, she's great. I absolutely love her and it's so damn weird because it's been that way ever since I met her.
We barely had any classes together in middle school but the ones that we did have together, I looked foward to. I looked foward to those classes alot. Band class in 7th grade was like the only grade that
I was ever able to hold an actual conversation with her. I learned a fair bit about her in 7th grade. We were both in percussion and played the same instrument so we were always in the back of the huge classroom where nobody could hardly hear us talking. We had time back there man.
We told eachother dumb stuff, never anything important. We weren't close or anything, we just talked alot. I really didn't have many emotionally close friends back then, not many friends at all actually.
I had two friends that I can actually remember having from back then.
We'll call those guys, Tyler, and Earl. Cool guys. I still talk to
them every once in a while. Not much though, we aren't very close. They're just cool guys, fun dudes, typical on and off friend shit ya'know?
Earl didn't have band class, that wasn't his scene. He wasn't that into playing many sports or anything at the time but uh, Tyler had band with me.
He was also in the percussion section. Me and him liked to mess around with
Jenny alot. We'd hide her binders from her, hide her schoolwork, her sheet music, ect. Of course we'd end up giving it back but it was fun, and funny to us.
We nearly got written up one time by the band director (The band director at the time) for hiding her sheet music. Good times.
Nobody besides me really knew that I liked this girl. I didn't even really know honeslty. I just knew that she was absolutely beuatiful, her voice sounded so keen to my ear, and that she was absolutely the nicest person I knew.
I didn't know what love was. Not at all, and I still don't. But ya'know.
I know a little more than I used to know (In 7th grade) I guess.Does that count?
We didn't really ever get that close. Well, uh, until recently.
Ya see, about 3-5 months ago, she started dating one of my friends.
My best friend in fact. (A bit of an update, I'm still in band.
I'm on my Highschool's drumline in fact. I've been doing it for 2 years. about to start my third year. It's absoltely the funnest thing I've ever been a part of in my own opinion. I love being a part of drumline man.
Jenny marched first bass my first year [Rookie year] and I marched tenors. My second year is nearly over actually. The marching season is over.
Jenny was on danceline and plans to do that for the rest of Highschool, and I marched snare. The hardest instrument on the Highschool line.
I'm legitimately proud because of how good I've gotten in the past few years.
Snare and and it's only my second year? I'm not good but I'm still proud.
My best friend currently, we'll call him Ed, played snare my first year and snare with me my second year. He's really cool, I've very close to him. He knows everything about me and I know everything about him. He's a juinor currently, about to be a senior.)
Anyways, they started "dating" about 3-5 months ago. It's a long story. Ed didn't really feel the same way about Jenny that Jenny felt about him but she mentally could NOT get over him just like I can't get over her. (Well at least at the time. I've actually finally broke the fucking curse. I'm over her.) So, to help her get over him properly
(It sounds odd, weird, dumb, ect. but it'd whatever to me. [lmao]) They fake "dated" for a while.
I don't understand it very much either don't worry dude. Anyways, I just kind of sat around and watched her get hurt by him not liking her back, become so happy because they could finally be "together", see her get hurt when she remembered the fact that it wasn't going to last, ect.
Well, at the time that they had started "dating" me and this girl, we'll call her Jane, started talking. We never dated but we got very close to that point. I still don't know if it was my fault or if it was her that it fell apart.Anyways, throughout the entire time that Jenny and Ed were together and me and Jane were together, I was hurt. Hurt that Jenny didn't like me.
Hurt that I had to settle for someone less. Nothing against Jane or anything, (Well, I have stuff against her but ya'know) but I just couldn't get over Jenny.
So remember that thing about 3-5 months ago. About a month into it, me and Jane split and went our own ways.
Hell yeah, it hurt but not as much as it should've simply because I was still In love with Jenny.
About 1 1/2 - 2 months after me and Jane split, Ed and Jenny split. Ed and Jane started talking here and there which I found weird but It was nothing big, just friends but still. Anyways, when Jenny began hurting over the ending of her's and Ed's relationship, Iwas there to help her. I can't say that Iwas the only one. Because I wasn't the only one dude. There were plenty of people helping her but I guess I helped. I feel like I did. Probably not.
Anyways, I did my best to help her. Told her when people were talking about her behind her back. Told her what Ed told me about the whole thing and what He told me about her. I told her everything about it.
Eventually that turned into us telling eachother everything about everything about everything about everything about everything but somewhere along the line, she lied about the things she told me. I'm not perfect, I probably lied too but I just do not recall.
Anyways, she lied. She told me that she liked me back, I have a screen of a text from her saying "I actually lowkey like you alot" even.
SO, I was going along with that, She told me that she liked me and I believed it. It made me so happy.
I could finally have her. The girl that I had wanted to have forever. We started developing closer and what not.
She kept telling me that she couldn't get over Ed but still liked me and I was willing to accept that and wait on her to be ready.
I mean, fuck I had already waited for years, what's some more time. Well eventually as me as her grew close, I started to ignore my friends, mainly Ed. I started acting like a full on asshole towards him and I didn't even realize it.
Yes it was towards other friends too but mainly towards him and another friends (We'll call him Jim, he's not in this story very much but he'll be in this tape some more, so remember Jim. Cool guy. Really close to him. Me and him are very close and relate alot so I consider him a seconf best friend in a way. He's great. Love him like a brother dude.) Anyways, I was just, centered around being with Jenny and that was it. I had seen so many other guys date her and get rid of her, I saw her get with my best friend, I saw this, I saw that.
I was just ready to try and be my best, and in that process I forgot soem friends.
Well both and Ed and Jim attacked me plenty of times verbally trying to get it through to me that I was being an asshole to them. I didn't pay much attention to it. Until one day.
That was the day that it all fell apart and made sense finally. Jenny and Ed had a bit of a falling out because of the breakup but had recently grown close as friends again. Jenny was informed by Ed that I had started being an asshole to him and that I was choosing her over him and how he wanted his best friend back. (Keep in mind that Ed is a tad bit clingy.) but he just wanted me back and even though he is clingy, that was understandable. So, Jenny and Ed both came to me at once and told me to fix it.
I guess I finally knew what the drama was all about because Jenny brought it up and all I wanted at the time was her.
I basically only listened to her. Ugh. So, I finally went to Ed to repair our friendship and me and him stayed up from
10pm - 3am explaing this all to him and he understood, I told him that Iwas sorry and he told me his side of it.
We finally ended up coming to a conclusion and repairing it all.
So I went to Jenny and told her that we fixed it all and she replied with. "I'm glad that you two are now on the same page."
I replied with "Me too and I hope that me and you are as well." She told me the full truth. She never liked me.
She was just trying to get back at Ed for the breakup. She led me on. That's the worst feeling ever, especially coming from her. It messed me up. That was 3 days ago.
She's forced my depression which I had beat back in 6th grade back onto me, she didn't mean to so I can't be mad at her.
Or can I? I'm so confused. I'm so pissed at her but at the same time. What can I do? At the same time, I'm not pissed at her att all. I've been constantly tired for three days. Unhappy but not sad. A zombie. What do I do? Help me. Alot of people would think that I'd be wishing for her to like me right? You'd think that i'd be absoltely not over her right? No.
I'm over her. I'm absoltely over her. Depressed. Fucked up. Unstable. Tired. Suicidal. Done. But over her.
Over Jenny.
It's fucking weird, I know. (Currently: I'm 15 and in the 9th grade.)
But for some reason I just like, mentally CAN NOT get over her.
We'll call her, Jenny for the purposes of hiding the identity of the actual person here, for the privacy of them and to keep the small ammount of respect that she has left for me. So anyways, she's legitimate perfection to me, beautiful blonde hair, amazingly colored eyes that occasionally change shade, great sense of humor, great personality, wonderful taste in music. Just. I don't know man. We're so much alike.
We both feel the same about nearly everything. We listen to the same bands, have the same opinons, beliefs, wishes, ect.
To me, looking at her, was like looking at a piece of art. …show more content…
Listening to her was like listening to a masterpiece, like uh
Kendrick Lamar's "To Pimp A Butterfly" or Twenty One Pilots'
"Regional At Best".
She's just, she's great. I absolutely love her and it's so damn weird because it's been that way ever since I met her.
We barely had any classes together in middle school but the ones that we did have together, I looked foward to. I looked foward to those classes alot. Band class in 7th grade was like the only grade that
I was ever able to hold an actual conversation with her. I learned a fair bit about her in 7th grade. We were both in percussion and played the same instrument so we were always in the back of the huge classroom where nobody could hardly hear us talking. We had time back there man.
We told eachother dumb stuff, never anything important. We weren't close or anything, we just talked alot. I really didn't have many emotionally close friends back then, not many friends at all actually.
I had two friends that I can actually remember having from back then.
We'll call those guys, Tyler, and Earl. Cool guys. I still talk to
them every once in a while. Not much though, we aren't very close. They're just cool guys, fun dudes, typical on and off friend shit ya'know?
Earl didn't have band class, that wasn't his scene. He wasn't that into playing many sports or anything at the time but uh, Tyler had band with me.
He was also in the percussion section. Me and him liked to mess around with
Jenny alot. We'd hide her binders from her, hide her schoolwork, her sheet music, ect. Of course we'd end up giving it back but it was fun, and funny to us.
We nearly got written up one time by the band director (The band director at the time) for hiding her sheet music. Good times.
Nobody besides me really knew that I liked this girl. I didn't even really know honeslty. I just knew that she was absolutely beuatiful, her voice sounded so keen to my ear, and that she was absolutely the nicest person I knew.
I didn't know what love was. Not at all, and I still don't. But ya'know.
I know a little more than I used to know (In 7th grade) I guess.Does that count?
We didn't really ever get that close. Well, uh, until recently.
Ya see, about 3-5 months ago, she started dating one of my friends.
My best friend in fact. (A bit of an update, I'm still in band.
I'm on my Highschool's drumline in fact. I've been doing it for 2 years. about to start my third year. It's absoltely the funnest thing I've ever been a part of in my own opinion. I love being a part of drumline man.
Jenny marched first bass my first year [Rookie year] and I marched tenors. My second year is nearly over actually. The marching season is over.
Jenny was on danceline and plans to do that for the rest of Highschool, and I marched snare. The hardest instrument on the Highschool line.
I'm legitimately proud because of how good I've gotten in the past few years.
Snare and and it's only my second year? I'm not good but I'm still proud.
My best friend currently, we'll call him Ed, played snare my first year and snare with me my second year. He's really cool, I've very close to him. He knows everything about me and I know everything about him. He's a juinor currently, about to be a senior.)
Anyways, they started "dating" about 3-5 months ago. It's a long story. Ed didn't really feel the same way about Jenny that Jenny felt about him but she mentally could NOT get over him just like I can't get over her. (Well at least at the time. I've actually finally broke the fucking curse. I'm over her.) So, to help her get over him properly
(It sounds odd, weird, dumb, ect. but it'd whatever to me. [lmao]) They fake "dated" for a while.
I don't understand it very much either don't worry dude. Anyways, I just kind of sat around and watched her get hurt by him not liking her back, become so happy because they could finally be "together", see her get hurt when she remembered the fact that it wasn't going to last, ect.
Well, at the time that they had started "dating" me and this girl, we'll call her Jane, started talking. We never dated but we got very close to that point. I still don't know if it was my fault or if it was her that it fell apart.Anyways, throughout the entire time that Jenny and Ed were together and me and Jane were together, I was hurt. Hurt that Jenny didn't like me.
Hurt that I had to settle for someone less. Nothing against Jane or anything, (Well, I have stuff against her but ya'know) but I just couldn't get over Jenny.
So remember that thing about 3-5 months ago. About a month into it, me and Jane split and went our own ways.
Hell yeah, it hurt but not as much as it should've simply because I was still In love with Jenny.
About 1 1/2 - 2 months after me and Jane split, Ed and Jenny split. Ed and Jane started talking here and there which I found weird but It was nothing big, just friends but still. Anyways, when Jenny began hurting over the ending of her's and Ed's relationship, Iwas there to help her. I can't say that Iwas the only one. Because I wasn't the only one dude. There were plenty of people helping her but I guess I helped. I feel like I did. Probably not.
Anyways, I did my best to help her. Told her when people were talking about her behind her back. Told her what Ed told me about the whole thing and what He told me about her. I told her everything about it.
Eventually that turned into us telling eachother everything about everything about everything about everything about everything but somewhere along the line, she lied about the things she told me. I'm not perfect, I probably lied too but I just do not recall.
Anyways, she lied. She told me that she liked me back, I have a screen of a text from her saying "I actually lowkey like you alot" even.
SO, I was going along with that, She told me that she liked me and I believed it. It made me so happy.
I could finally have her. The girl that I had wanted to have forever. We started developing closer and what not.
She kept telling me that she couldn't get over Ed but still liked me and I was willing to accept that and wait on her to be ready.
I mean, fuck I had already waited for years, what's some more time. Well eventually as me as her grew close, I started to ignore my friends, mainly Ed. I started acting like a full on asshole towards him and I didn't even realize it.
Yes it was towards other friends too but mainly towards him and another friends (We'll call him Jim, he's not in this story very much but he'll be in this tape some more, so remember Jim. Cool guy. Really close to him. Me and him are very close and relate alot so I consider him a seconf best friend in a way. He's great. Love him like a brother dude.) Anyways, I was just, centered around being with Jenny and that was it. I had seen so many other guys date her and get rid of her, I saw her get with my best friend, I saw this, I saw that.
I was just ready to try and be my best, and in that process I forgot soem friends.
Well both and Ed and Jim attacked me plenty of times verbally trying to get it through to me that I was being an asshole to them. I didn't pay much attention to it. Until one day.
That was the day that it all fell apart and made sense finally. Jenny and Ed had a bit of a falling out because of the breakup but had recently grown close as friends again. Jenny was informed by Ed that I had started being an asshole to him and that I was choosing her over him and how he wanted his best friend back. (Keep in mind that Ed is a tad bit clingy.) but he just wanted me back and even though he is clingy, that was understandable. So, Jenny and Ed both came to me at once and told me to fix it.
I guess I finally knew what the drama was all about because Jenny brought it up and all I wanted at the time was her.
I basically only listened to her. Ugh. So, I finally went to Ed to repair our friendship and me and him stayed up from
10pm - 3am explaing this all to him and he understood, I told him that Iwas sorry and he told me his side of it.
We finally ended up coming to a conclusion and repairing it all.
So I went to Jenny and told her that we fixed it all and she replied with. "I'm glad that you two are now on the same page."
I replied with "Me too and I hope that me and you are as well." She told me the full truth. She never liked me.
She was just trying to get back at Ed for the breakup. She led me on. That's the worst feeling ever, especially coming from her. It messed me up. That was 3 days ago.
She's forced my depression which I had beat back in 6th grade back onto me, she didn't mean to so I can't be mad at her.
Or can I? I'm so confused. I'm so pissed at her but at the same time. What can I do? At the same time, I'm not pissed at her att all. I've been constantly tired for three days. Unhappy but not sad. A zombie. What do I do? Help me. Alot of people would think that I'd be wishing for her to like me right? You'd think that i'd be absoltely not over her right? No.
I'm over her. I'm absoltely over her. Depressed. Fucked up. Unstable. Tired. Suicidal. Done. But over her.
Over Jenny.