12th Grade
March 10th, 2014
Where do I see myself in 10 years?
I’m often asked the question: “What do you want to do in college?” or “What do you want to do after college?” and these often weary questions always lead back to the one question that I truly struggle with: Where do I see myself in the future? I've always been a worrying person and despite the “what-ifs” that cross my mind from time to time, I try to remember that there are certain things that I can control and many things that I simply can’t, like, whether or not I will see tomorrow. However, if I could imagine my life without the what-ifs, and if I had complete control over my destiny, it would be fairly simple. Ten years from now I would be twenty-seven years old, graduated from college, financially secure, settling down with the person to spend the rest of my life with, and set within a stable environment both socially and spiritually. As God can cause unfaltering blessings, where you suddenly meet the right person, and they’re beautiful and kind; or suddenly your health improves, and your back stops hurting and you can easily stretch to reach the item on the top shelf; or suddenly you have that incentive to buy your dream house and you can finally pay off the life-draining amount of bills you've accumulated. Though, it’s usually not like that. Our lives are a trial and life is unexpected. As Paulo Coelho said: “We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen.” So, as I step into this world, realistically, where do I see myself in ten years? Quite honestly, I have no idea! I would like to think that I've stopped worrying and to know that I can look back over the last ten years and feel that I haven’t turned into the emotionally broken shell of a human being that I have seen many people become. I want to see that I've never lost my love and ambition for something better.