Williams tells us, “Mother was a private woman, not a silent one. ‘I don’t like people knowing my thoughts’” (T. T. Williams). It makes perfect sense that she would be uncomfortable leaving behind what she kept for herself when she was alive. However, it is curious that she reveals the existence of her blank journals, asking Terry not to read them until she is gone. Consider that by then, no questions can be asked. In a dialogue, answers can end the discussion. Human nature tends to desire them, but soon after, they can be forgotten and left behind. Rarely do we contemplate the cycle of water, a concept we understand well, but we often contemplate the cycle of life and death, a concept that remains mysterious. Perhaps her mother wanted some conversations to continue, and this was a way of ensuring that. Adulthood changes your relationship with a parent, usually providing years of dialogue and companionship that add richness and complexity. Being denied that time, her mother, rather than summarizing complicated issues she knew her daughter might face, decided instead to let Terry think about them, over time, deeply, the way it would have happened if her mother had lived longer. She would have known Terry’s introspective nature, and wisely fed
Williams tells us, “Mother was a private woman, not a silent one. ‘I don’t like people knowing my thoughts’” (T. T. Williams). It makes perfect sense that she would be uncomfortable leaving behind what she kept for herself when she was alive. However, it is curious that she reveals the existence of her blank journals, asking Terry not to read them until she is gone. Consider that by then, no questions can be asked. In a dialogue, answers can end the discussion. Human nature tends to desire them, but soon after, they can be forgotten and left behind. Rarely do we contemplate the cycle of water, a concept we understand well, but we often contemplate the cycle of life and death, a concept that remains mysterious. Perhaps her mother wanted some conversations to continue, and this was a way of ensuring that. Adulthood changes your relationship with a parent, usually providing years of dialogue and companionship that add richness and complexity. Being denied that time, her mother, rather than summarizing complicated issues she knew her daughter might face, decided instead to let Terry think about them, over time, deeply, the way it would have happened if her mother had lived longer. She would have known Terry’s introspective nature, and wisely fed