Yea Monologue

If there’s one thing you should know about me is that I lose things… keys, earphones, jackets, $40, and a laptop my senior year. Yea, you can imagine how it is to blessed and anointed to lose things. It’s my ministry. Pray for my deliverance. My lack of being able to keep things has led to a bit of distrust in my mother with certain things. There’s not a time that she hands me something and does not utter these, “Please, don’t lose this.” I know what you’re thinking. “She’s just being a mother… Can you blame her… Look at your track record… you lost a laptop!!” You’re right, but I don’t do that anymore… as much. What frustrates me is that after a year of being responsible, I’d expect for the reminders to stop.

My frustration is not because
“Never fails… never disappoints.” Isn’t that how God is towards us? He promises to never leave us nor forsake us. So many at times we lose sight of this because we focus on our troubles all around us, that we miss the glory of Jesus. 2 Corinthians tells us that our troubles are “light and momentary.”

“Well that’s easy for you to say…” Which is true, but the reason it’s harder for you to say is because your memory is focus on the pressure of your storm. And that the principle of perspective. It begins with your mind. The patterns you process shape your mentality which possess your reality. Which begs the question, which patterns are you processing? The patterns of your storm? The patterns of your alcoholic father? Your dysfunctional family? Your “not-so-new” doctor’s report after your routine check up?

When our reality seems so hopeless and helpless, it’s because we’ve processed the patterns of our storm. What do I mean by that? We’ve focused so much on the damage and what we lack and what has happened and what we think will happen that we’ve made meditating on the effects of this storm a habit. That’s when this phrase comes in… “Well, the last time something like this happened… and I’m sure it will happen again.” True, but
Why is that? Because we know what happens. How does your dad keep hitting your mom? Well it usually starts with him coming home tired… then this happens… and then I don’t do this, which makes him feel like this… and then he does this. See what I mean? The frequency of storms produce in us a familiarity and a predictability with situations that make them a commonality. Frequency. Familiarity. Predictability. Commonality.

After being through frequent setbacks, your mind just begins to pick up “setbacks” as a common part of your life, thus programming your mind to predict when you’re about to be setback. The commonality of setbacks in our life is an enemy to your faith. It limits your faith in the sense that your faith can only go so far, but when it comes to the area of your setbacks, you have little faith, maybe even none. It’s like a dog that is chained to its kennel. Every time he runs after a stranger, after a certain distance the chain pulls him back or sets him back making his movement limited. That’s what happens to us when we allow the patterns of our life determine our faith, rather than our faith determine the patterns of our