While Ishmael was running from the war, the idea of killing people hunted him. He could never understand how people would kill and not be affected by it. Whenever the rebels would execute civilians it would shake him up. Once Ishmael joined the army, his state of mind and judgement changed. Ishmael talks about killing innocent people stating, “killing had become as easy as drinking water. My mind had not only snapped during the first killings, it had also stopped making remorseful records” (Beah 122). This shows that after joining the army Ishmael had changed. Instead of making him sick, killing now gave him some type of fulfilment. While he was fighting, he wouldn’t feel anything. Ishmael had become immune to the world around him. The army would make the soldiers take drugs. They would give them marijuana and cocaine mixed with gunpowder. Eventually Ishmael was addicted to them. He would do anything for the drugs, and they were all he thought about. The drugs made Ishmael feel“numbness to everything” (Beah 121). It seems that
While Ishmael was running from the war, the idea of killing people hunted him. He could never understand how people would kill and not be affected by it. Whenever the rebels would execute civilians it would shake him up. Once Ishmael joined the army, his state of mind and judgement changed. Ishmael talks about killing innocent people stating, “killing had become as easy as drinking water. My mind had not only snapped during the first killings, it had also stopped making remorseful records” (Beah 122). This shows that after joining the army Ishmael had changed. Instead of making him sick, killing now gave him some type of fulfilment. While he was fighting, he wouldn’t feel anything. Ishmael had become immune to the world around him. The army would make the soldiers take drugs. They would give them marijuana and cocaine mixed with gunpowder. Eventually Ishmael was addicted to them. He would do anything for the drugs, and they were all he thought about. The drugs made Ishmael feel“numbness to everything” (Beah 121). It seems that