A Mother's Love: Essay

My Mother’s Love
Every time when I sit on my roof I tend to stare at the sky and all of a sudden I start to think of the moment that has made the most impact on my life and that’s when my mom had the patience and taught me how to walk and the first word that came out of my mouth was mom. Most likely walking and talking was the only thing she taught me it but everything else I have learned I’ve done it on my own because she left me at a very young age. Some of my learning experiences have been very harsh since for me I learned to live on my own at a very young age but before my mom left me on my own, I remember that I would get a rap with a small ruler on the back of my hand for touching the electric cable that would hang from the electric iron and even though I wouldn’t hurt me I remember I would still burst out in tears. When this happened a few times, I would then never touch it since I knew that my mother would hit my hand and I did not want to be hit. I think all of these things that my mother did with me ended up in making up the personality and the identity that I have today.
Another thing that I am now aware of which I am sure I was not previously aware of as a child are my strong emotions. Even though I remember being very angry and extremely happy at various occasions in my childhood, and I also remember expressing my feelings, I could hardly give them a name at the time. All I would know is that I was feeling upset, I would know why but I always denied it in front of people. But after growing up, and figuring out myself and who I really am, and getting to know many people who have approach my life I found that there are many different kinds of emotions and many different ways to experience and show them., and with many emotions that I have experience throughout my life memories come with them.
Flashing back to the saddest Christmas I ever had in my entire life I received the most beautiful gifts from my mother, even thou she was far away in the other side of the world, I felt her love when I was opening up that gift. It was a beautiful pendant shaped in a shape of a butterfly, and it’s still still the most valuable and best item that I have. I am really attached to that simple and delicate piece of jewelry and most of the time I find myself wearing it around my neck on a very small silver chain that my mother gave me a long with the necklace. I do not know why but somehow with just that little pendant I fell so close to my mother, I feel like if she’s next to me, I feel he scent of fresh flowers, I just feel her presence around me, even though she has hardly been around in my whole entire life. Whenever I feel troubled or I feel heavy at heart, I find myself missing my mother, since we happen to be so far apart all I have to do is hold the butterfly in my hand and close my eyes and suddenly everything becomes alright. I still remember the day of Christmas eve when my mother gave me the pendant as a gift. I have always loved butterflies and I was so happy when I opened a gift from my mother packed in a wrapping paper that had many butterflies on it. I remember how happy my heart felt, my eyes sparkly and wide open, as I rushed to open the packet and see that I what was inside that little packet I found the beautiful pendant inside a rectangular box. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.
I cannot believe how a very delicate and small piece of jewelry could have change my thoughts and emotions right away and everytime I hold it tight it reminds me the love of my mother even though she’s not around as often as I wish no matter how far apart we are from each other I know that she loves me and no matter what she would always be there for me no matter what. Even though my mother left me when I was very young I am very grateful towards her because she gave me everything that I wanted and needed as well. Even though my mom was never around to teach me what was right and what was wrong she was always in my heart and in my thoughts, even if we tend to get in really bad arguments I would still love her and thank her fro everything she has done for me and without her I wouldn’t be the person that I am now.