I hate my life. Every day I suffer. Everyday I’m hurt. Everyday I’m discriminated against because I’m black! I just can’t take it anymore! Why do they treat me like this? I’m a human being just like they are! Just because I’m black they think they can be horrible to me and treat me like an animal. Nobody has got the rights to do that! Underneath, I’m exactly like everyone else! I have feelings – I can be happy, sad, and angry too. But no, to them I’m just a nigger. A worthless human being.
Life on the ranch is so painstakingly hard and boring. Every day it’s the same cycle. I wake up, tend the horses, clean the barn and go to bed. I feel like I’m in a nightmare and can’t escape. I have nowhere to go, nowhere in on this goddamn earth to go to! Having a crippled back doesn’t help either, it’s always devastatingly painful to even lift myself out of bed! The only thing I’m looking forward to is my death, when I’ll be able to reunite with my father in heaven and live a peaceful afterlife. There’ll be no more pain, no more heartache and no more difficulties. I’ll be forever at peace. But until that day I’m gonna have to put up with hell.
The worst thing about life on the ranch is the loneliness I must face every day. I wish and hope every day with all my heart for a companion. A person to share my feeling with. A person to share stories with and share laughter with. A guy needs somebody to keep him company, a guy goes nuts if he ain’t got nobody. But the most heart aching thing is that I have no family, I would do anything just to have one.
I’ll never have the chance to live my American dream, to one day experience the happiness of my childhood. To have my own land, my own family and to not be discriminated against everyday cause of my colour. But all of my hopes have been shattered into a million pieces, and why? Because I’m black! I hope that one day everyone will be considered equal to each other. When everyone respects each other regardless