Step Work Done Essay Example
Step 1 DISEASE OF ADDICTION
=How can we tell when our disease is active? When we are only thinking of what we want, when we are obsessive, compulsive, self centered. When all else doesn’t matter but what I want, regardless of consequences. When I act out. when I am in self pitty mode… when I don’t feel like going to a meeting, being of service, sharing nor praying. When my heads starts talking to me . When I think I am better then, when I allow my ego to take over.
=What does "the disease of ddiction" mean to me? The disease of addiction means my thinking… it’s the same thinking that has brought me to my knees. It’s the thinking that is centered in my mind. I understand today it may manifest in different areas of my life. Denial, isolation, self centeredness, ego. It means to me that I suffer from uncurable disease that I must work to arrest it. =Has my disease been active recently? YES
=In what way? My disease has been active in my behavior, my thought process, My disease well tell me that I need to let them know who I am . My anger is one of the ways my disease is active. Sometimes I isolate… when I am alone my head starts fucking with me.
= What is it like when I'm obsessed with something? Does my thinking follow a pattern? Describe. It’s like a trap once I start there is no stoping my every thought and move is all about him or whatever I am obsessing about. I treat justin like a drug the getting and using and means to get more of him. It’s a Spiro affect and I cant stop I feel trapped sometimes I just act out on justin I don’t stop to think or play the tape . there is always a pattern once I am obsessing about something and I don’t get the results I want then I anger and act out on him or whatever and that makes me feel bad then I self pitty and blame others and my life becomes unmanageable once again and then the anger grows the self pitty with some isolation and blaming again and act out seek to medicate the results
=How can we tell when our disease is active? When we are only thinking of what we want, when we are obsessive, compulsive, self centered. When all else doesn’t matter but what I want, regardless of consequences. When I act out. when I am in self pitty mode… when I don’t feel like going to a meeting, being of service, sharing nor praying. When my heads starts talking to me . When I think I am better then, when I allow my ego to take over.
=What does "the disease of ddiction" mean to me? The disease of addiction means my thinking… it’s the same thinking that has brought me to my knees. It’s the thinking that is centered in my mind. I understand today it may manifest in different areas of my life. Denial, isolation, self centeredness, ego. It means to me that I suffer from uncurable disease that I must work to arrest it. =Has my disease been active recently? YES
=In what way? My disease has been active in my behavior, my thought process, My disease well tell me that I need to let them know who I am . My anger is one of the ways my disease is active. Sometimes I isolate… when I am alone my head starts fucking with me.
= What is it like when I'm obsessed with something? Does my thinking follow a pattern? Describe. It’s like a trap once I start there is no stoping my every thought and move is all about him or whatever I am obsessing about. I treat justin like a drug the getting and using and means to get more of him. It’s a Spiro affect and I cant stop I feel trapped sometimes I just act out on justin I don’t stop to think or play the tape . there is always a pattern once I am obsessing about something and I don’t get the results I want then I anger and act out on him or whatever and that makes me feel bad then I self pitty and blame others and my life becomes unmanageable once again and then the anger grows the self pitty with some isolation and blaming again and act out seek to medicate the results