Deborah Fontanel
I Believe My Mother Loved Me
When I was four, I killed my mother. My mom was cleaning out the closet and my dad came in and got mad at her. There was a fight and a gun. I grabbed the gun and heard a boom. I didn’t know it then but I know now that I was the one who killed my mother.
Why was she cleaning out the closet? Why was there a gun? I ask myself these questions all the time. My father says that she didn’t love me and she left us. I don’t think that is true. I think my mother loved me. I ask my dad about her, but he won’t say anything. He didn’t know I remembered killing her until one day in the peach stand. He was mad when he found out.
I found a box of things that belonged to my mother in the attic. My mom had a picture of a black Mary and it had …show more content…
“Tiburon, South Carolina” written on the back. I have always wanted to go there. One day, I left home, took the things that belonged to my mother with me and went to Tiburon. I found the picture of black Mary in a grocery store on a jar of honey and asked where it came from. I was led to the Boatwright house where I met May, July, and August.
After living with them for a while, I asked May about my mom and she said she knew her.
In fact she stayed in the same room I am staying in now. I went and talked to August about her to in find out more.
Her name was Deborah Fontanel. August knew I was her daughter the day I showed up at her house. When August was younger she worked as a housekeeper in Deborah’s house, and took care of her. Deborah and August kept in touch and August told me that Deborah met T-Ray and fell in love. After a while Deborah was losing her love for T-Ray. He asked her to get married,but she said no. She changed her mind eventually because she was pregnant, with me. I was an unwanted baby.
One day Deborah called August and said she was leaving T-Ray and wanted to stay at August’s house. When Deborah showed up at the house I wasn’t with her. She didn’t love me. She left me behind with T-Ray. August said Deborah loved me but she was depressed and when people are depressed they do things they normally wouldn’t do. How could someone leave their child?
August said that, when Deborah started getting better, she left the house and went back to get me. I knew what happened after that. She was packing her stuff, T-Ray came, and I killed
her.
I believe my mother loved me, but after hearing her story I wasn’t so sure, until one day when August brought me the things Deborah left behind when she went to go get me. August took them out one at a time; a mirror, a brush, a whale pin, a book of poetry, and a picture. That picture changed what I thought about my mother. It was a picture of her smiling at me as a baby. I knew it was the sign I had been looking for, to show me that my mother loved me. It took a while for me to understand she did what she had to, but I believe that she really did love me.
When I was four, I killed my mother. My mom was cleaning out the closet and my dad came in and got mad at her. There was a fight and a gun. I grabbed the gun and heard a boom. I didn’t know it then but I know now that I was the one who killed my mother.
Why was she cleaning out the closet? Why was there a gun? I ask myself these questions all the time. My father says that she didn’t love me and she left us. I don’t think that is true. I think my mother loved me. I ask my dad about her, but he won’t say anything. He didn’t know I remembered killing her until one day in the peach stand. He was mad when he found out.
I found a box of things that belonged to my mother in the attic. My mom had a picture of a black Mary and it had …show more content…
“Tiburon, South Carolina” written on the back. I have always wanted to go there. One day, I left home, took the things that belonged to my mother with me and went to Tiburon. I found the picture of black Mary in a grocery store on a jar of honey and asked where it came from. I was led to the Boatwright house where I met May, July, and August.
After living with them for a while, I asked May about my mom and she said she knew her.
In fact she stayed in the same room I am staying in now. I went and talked to August about her to in find out more.
Her name was Deborah Fontanel. August knew I was her daughter the day I showed up at her house. When August was younger she worked as a housekeeper in Deborah’s house, and took care of her. Deborah and August kept in touch and August told me that Deborah met T-Ray and fell in love. After a while Deborah was losing her love for T-Ray. He asked her to get married,but she said no. She changed her mind eventually because she was pregnant, with me. I was an unwanted baby.
One day Deborah called August and said she was leaving T-Ray and wanted to stay at August’s house. When Deborah showed up at the house I wasn’t with her. She didn’t love me. She left me behind with T-Ray. August said Deborah loved me but she was depressed and when people are depressed they do things they normally wouldn’t do. How could someone leave their child?
August said that, when Deborah started getting better, she left the house and went back to get me. I knew what happened after that. She was packing her stuff, T-Ray came, and I killed
her.
I believe my mother loved me, but after hearing her story I wasn’t so sure, until one day when August brought me the things Deborah left behind when she went to go get me. August took them out one at a time; a mirror, a brush, a whale pin, a book of poetry, and a picture. That picture changed what I thought about my mother. It was a picture of her smiling at me as a baby. I knew it was the sign I had been looking for, to show me that my mother loved me. It took a while for me to understand she did what she had to, but I believe that she really did love me.