Defining Moments In My Writing Career

My definition of writing might be a little different that what one would find in a dictionary, because of the history it and I share. I would define writing as a treacherous task where I wade through hundreds of thousands of unfiltered words to come across the other side with a heaping pile that somewhat halfway resembles what one might call a well-manicured essay. Reflecting now I can see some of my strong suits and some that are not so strong as well as some of the defining moments in my writing career. For starters, I consider myself a very analytical person. My girlfriend would say OCD. I feel that this is a good thing in my writing practices. When I write I like to record the full story, and make sure that all my I’s are dotted and that
For starter, I am never sure of myself. I am constantly changing topics or rewording because I feel that my writing is inadequate. This makes it hard to write on a confined schedule. I find myself often running behind and not being able to finish papers on time. That would bring me to my second soft point which is procrastination. I struggle with procrastination in all my subjects, but English seems to be the worse subject to stay ahead in. It always seems to me that I tell myself I am going to write, and then on the way to my computer I become sidetracked faster than a train in a blizzard. I also struggle with finding a unique writing style. I suppose that can be attributed to how many English teachers I have had. Coming up through school, most of how I was taught to write was for the state tests. My last two years of high school was more lenient than previous years. Even still, my 2333 English Professor came in-between semesters and completely retaught us how to write and erased what my previous professor taught. I suppose looking back that each professor will have a certain way they want papers written, and adaptation is an important skill that I should learn. I just overall struggle with finding a writing style that is unique to me because I am so focused on what everyone else wants. I also have a grim time with imitative thinking. I believe this to be because of my analytical background. I find it much easier time writing research and analysis papers than writing from a descriptive prompt. I have never been very good at free style writing, but I do appreciate its ability to free the mind of its thoughts and ideas. Quite honestly, I lack having a writing process. Most of the time it is just me throwing words at the page and hoping that a few stick. I am aware of brainstorming techniques and plans, but they just don’t flow for me. For some odd reason, I just cannot