Eleanor Self Consciousness Examples

Throughout this journal, both Eleanor and I can be considered self-conscious and anxious in social situations. To begin, I can personally relate and connect to Eleanor’s self-consciousness. One way our self-consciousness is similar is that we both have poor self-images of ourselves. Within the book, Eleanor has multiple moments displaying her discomfort towards her own body. For example, Eleanor garners a strong loathing towards gym class, as it requires for her to wear a skin tight gym suit that makes her feel overweight and repulsive. This manifested disgust is added onto by her classmate-given nickname “Big Red”, cruelly limelighting her large body and untameable red hair. I can relate to Eleanor’s feelings of having an inadequate self-image, as I myself have felt repelled by my
From the beginning of their relationship, Eleanor is constantly questioning why Park is deciding to be with her, and preparing herself for the “inevitability” when he realizes he is wasting his time with her. Unfortunately, I think that with my current teenage mindset, I would feel akin to Eleanor if I were to enter a romantic relationship. As it is, I often think I am a nuisance to my friends and am undeserving of them. As a preventive measure, I have created a codeword that they are supposed to use whenever I am being too insufferable, as a way to let me know that I am being annoying and should refrain from the situation. I describe this codeword as a way to demonstrate the similarity between Eleanor and I, as we both think ourselves ineligible for others’ affections. This lack of confidence in our own worth displays our parallel self-consciousness. In addition to being self-conscious, Eleanor and I also both get anxious in social situations. One example presenting this is that we are afraid to speak to