It does not take much to keep the attention once one has already received it. Xavier comes to believe that he should be the soldier that others expect him to be, similar to that of Elijah. As the only person who knew Elijah the most, Xavier knew that he was better and should be treated equally if not better than Elijah, “If I can do this I will no longer be so much the outsider. I will gain respect.” (100). Xavier’s lack of recognition from the battalion causes him to feel secluded and in need of sense of belonging. Xavier puts his relationship with Elijah on the line by embarrassing him and shooting the duck in front of the other soldiers after Elijah had missed, “Me, I won’t let them forget who I am.” (226). The only thing that Xavier wants is to be admired for his own gratification. Nevertheless, the greatest trade off that Xavier made for the respect from others is undoubtedly his own loss of respect for
It does not take much to keep the attention once one has already received it. Xavier comes to believe that he should be the soldier that others expect him to be, similar to that of Elijah. As the only person who knew Elijah the most, Xavier knew that he was better and should be treated equally if not better than Elijah, “If I can do this I will no longer be so much the outsider. I will gain respect.” (100). Xavier’s lack of recognition from the battalion causes him to feel secluded and in need of sense of belonging. Xavier puts his relationship with Elijah on the line by embarrassing him and shooting the duck in front of the other soldiers after Elijah had missed, “Me, I won’t let them forget who I am.” (226). The only thing that Xavier wants is to be admired for his own gratification. Nevertheless, the greatest trade off that Xavier made for the respect from others is undoubtedly his own loss of respect for