Kissing Doorknobs Analysis

Spencer Hesser, Terry. Kissing Doorknobs. New York: Bantam Doubleday Dell Books for Young Readers, 1998. [149 pp.] In Kissing Doorknobs, Terry Spencer Hesser has provided a compelling, moving, and sensitive account of one young woman's struggles with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. At first her symptoms seemed innocent, but later they progressed so much that they interfered with her life, causing her friends to abandon her and her parents to haul her from one doctor to another, receiving multiple incorrect diagnoses. Kissing Doorknobs provides an up-close and personal look at a commonly misunderstood biological disease, animated characters to help bring the story to life, and the extremely important theme of never giving up. The story
begins by introducing the main character, Tara Sullivan. At the age of eleven, she heard the phrase: step on a crack, break your mother's back. Then she started counting cracks everywhere she went, in constant fear of breaking her mother's back. Tara was an outcast throughout most of elementary school. While her friends were trying to look like the models in magazines and starting to date boys, Tara was busy playing with troll dolls, counting cracks, and kissing doorknobs. No one considered that she possibly had a disease. Her friends and family called her crazy, and the psychiatrists diagnosed her with A.D.D, anorexia, and immaturity. OCD is a commonly overlooked disease, and the following quote shows the stress that can be caused if it is not diagnosed at an early stage. "Employing a sort of demented Pavlonian reasoning, my mother threatened to slap me every time I did the doorknob ritual so that I would associate it with pain instead of pleasure--as if there was any pleasure involved in this. ‘Taraaaa!' she'd warn as I approached the door. But I couldn't think about her. I could only think about what I had to do. Whether I wanted to or not. I looked at the doorknob…" (99)
Tara could not explain the irrational urges to other people; she just had to do these things. If her family and friends were more aware of OCD, she could have been diagnosed sooner and been less traumatized throughout her early life. Throughout the story, the reader is introduced to many animated and interesting characters.
Tara's friends, Keesha and Donna, are not afraid to speak their minds. Donna was the school rebel who took Tara under her wing. After meeting Donna, Tara's symptoms did subside for a while and she began to feel normal for a time. But Donna was involved in drugs and stealing, and she also became pregnant. Donna's troubles were stressful to Tara and brought back the symptoms of OCD. Keesha was an outspoken girl who stood up for Tara, until Tara's OCD became too much for even Keesha to handle. The following quote shows just a small part of Spencer Hesser's writing that really brings these characters to life.
"Keesha was black and full of theatrical attitude. Her parents and grandparents had been part of the civil rights movement and, as she told us frequently: ‘Hawney! My mama and daddy and aunties and uncles did not risk their lives fightin' for civil rights so that I could sit next to Kristin here whining about not looking like a straw with a head. If we'd known that y'all were gonna talk so stupid, we'd a begged for separate schools'"(18)
Through Tara's interactions with these animated characters, the reader can easily see the struggles that OCD can cause for a young woman trying to fit into the
norm. Throughout all of Tara's struggles with OCD, she never gives up.
She keeps thinking that she will recover on her own and tries to not be a burden to others. Most of her actions were, in her mind, done toward helping her friends and family. Later in the story Tara meets Sam, a boy who, with the help of medication and group therapy, is recovering from OCD. He introduces her to a psychiatrist, Susan Leonardi, who correctly diagnoses Tara and helps her get on the path to recovery. Sam was the first person that Tara met who also suffered from OCD. Consequentially, they shared a bond and depended on each other.
"Sam's hands met mine. He was crying, I was crying. It was hard. But with this small gesture, we were fighting back. We weren't paralyzed or crushed by this monster. We didn't fold or drop out. We summoned the courage to play the cards life had dealt each of us. Reluctant, insecure warriors but warriors all the same, And we weren't alone."(149)
One of the best lessons that can be learned from this story is to never give up and the tale accurately portrays this. Tara, with the help of her friends and family, is on the way to win her battle over
OCD. All in all, Kissing Doorknobs, is a highly recommended book for all ages. With it's believable characters, inside look at Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and influential ending, this book can not only inform a reader of the struggles that a person endures while living with OCD, but can also give the reader a theme that will help them get through any struggles that they may encounter in life.