Margaret Goldsmith Monologue

What is that? Or…who is that? Oh gosh I think i’m going to stop the car should I? No I shouldn’t. Should I? No it’s too late now. Ugh! I’ve done it again. Once again welcome to the show titled what a terrible human being Margret Goldsmith is. He was just standing their on the side of the road, thumb up in the air and I drove right on by. He didn’t look threatening. Not really. Why did I do that. He probably just needed to get home to see his family. Maybe in order to support them he had to take a job hours away but now it’s christmas and all little Jimmy could ever ask for is his daddy at home. Maybe I was his only chance to prove himself to his son. Well shit, just like that’s it i’ve ruined another father son relationship. Ben hates it when I say things like that. Ben probably hates a lot of things about me. Most of all I think he hates that his family hates me. They think i’m scum found on the bottom of their koi pond. Or they think i’m a gold digger and their son’s a solid block of gold. No i’ve got to stop thinking like that. I
I’ll turn the car around and pick up the man. I’ll walk into Ben’s mothers home hours late and they’ll all be so angry that I ruined their christmas. But then i’ll tell them the story of how I saved someone else's christmas. I’ll prove to them that i’m not some washed up dead beat who skips out on family togetherness because I can’t stand to see what i’ve ruined. Do I even have the guts to do it. To help someone out. I’m so selfish! Ben would stop the car, Ben would help anyone in need. Perfect little Ben who can do no wrong. No stop this isn’t about Ben. He’s probably so embarrassed right now. He’ll tell me it didn’t bother him. He’ll tell me he didn’t care that he had to sit at the table fielding of questions about where Margret was.
“Margret all I cared about was where you were…I was worried about you”. But does he ever do more than tell me these things, how about standing up to his mother for