Marriage Journal Entry
For this journal entry I wanted to continue to talk about marriage and how my life has been changed by it. I know that marriage is amazing for me personally, and presently. This was not the case always however and I would like to talk about why. I married the first time to a childhood friend from a neighboring farm. We had both graduated college by that time and were ready to start a family and settle down for life.
Things were going extremely well for both of us as we had great jobs and were very happy. We had talked about having a child for maybe 7 years and decided to do so. This was so exciting building a new place for them baby and I was totally enthralled with the idea. We were in our mid-twenties and then about 6 months into the pregnancy …show more content…
To everyone’s amazement the child lived and spent the next 3 months in a NICU. Emily, was very tiny at 735 grams. Her family wanted nothing to do with her or our child. They felt like both were defective, and shunned any and all interaction. This lead to a division between our extended families and ultimately between us.
We were balancing a child in the hospital and the associated bills with work and each other also. This became a very tough thing to do, and our marriage suffered gravely. Over time she blamed herself unjustly for the early delivery of our daughter. This became as tone around her neck that try as I might I could not bear for her. I would reach out to her and could not seem to help her to deal with the anxiety of her loss of family.
My wife became despondent and I feared suicidal even before Emily was allowed to come home with us. I realize that post-partum bring about certain hormonal changes that can be quite dramatic in some people. This was well beyond anything that I had ever hear or read about. I was concerned for her and solicited help form friends and my family as well as the church. It was a few years, before she finally was able to understand and deal with how her family had treated her. I was as supportive as I possibly could be, and prayed for her each
Things were going extremely well for both of us as we had great jobs and were very happy. We had talked about having a child for maybe 7 years and decided to do so. This was so exciting building a new place for them baby and I was totally enthralled with the idea. We were in our mid-twenties and then about 6 months into the pregnancy …show more content…
To everyone’s amazement the child lived and spent the next 3 months in a NICU. Emily, was very tiny at 735 grams. Her family wanted nothing to do with her or our child. They felt like both were defective, and shunned any and all interaction. This lead to a division between our extended families and ultimately between us.
We were balancing a child in the hospital and the associated bills with work and each other also. This became a very tough thing to do, and our marriage suffered gravely. Over time she blamed herself unjustly for the early delivery of our daughter. This became as tone around her neck that try as I might I could not bear for her. I would reach out to her and could not seem to help her to deal with the anxiety of her loss of family.
My wife became despondent and I feared suicidal even before Emily was allowed to come home with us. I realize that post-partum bring about certain hormonal changes that can be quite dramatic in some people. This was well beyond anything that I had ever hear or read about. I was concerned for her and solicited help form friends and my family as well as the church. It was a few years, before she finally was able to understand and deal with how her family had treated her. I was as supportive as I possibly could be, and prayed for her each