Growing up I have always referred to myself as an African American. This is because both of my parents were born and raised in Ghana, West Africa. I was born in Bronx, New York making me both an African and an American. Growing up my siblings and I were told not to “act black”. I listened to my Ghanaian music and very rarely listened to …show more content…
If I started to act out or talk back at home my father would discipline me for “acting black”. I made it a conscious effort at an early age to speak properly, to dress conservatively, not to talk loudly or make a big scene, and keeping all my sassy comments to myself.
It wasn’t until my family moved down to North Carolina did I experience being discriminated against because of my skin color. I was shocked! I had been teased for being African before, but I had never been bullied for being black. Something in my brain clicked, no matter how “African” my name was, how many Ghanaian songs I knew, or that I was almost completely fluent in my native tongue when people saw me they saw a Black girl. As a young girl this was a very hard reality for me to accept. Instantly all the negative stereotypes that I associated with Black Americans came to mind. Was this how people saw me?
As I did more research into my newfound identity I realized that being Black was nothing to be ashamed of. I could finally take off all the restrictions that I put on myself. It opened new doors of possibilities, I had not realized that trying not to be “black” was a huge weight on my shoulders. I could be myself at last without wondering if I was acting to “black” or not being “African”