My Pursuit Of Perfectionism

Here’s the thing about me and perfectionism, I can’t control it. When something doesn’t meet my “high expectations,” I would do anything in my power to fix it. I would always bust my butt to live up to an impossible standard I call my goal, and never give up until I reach the “picture-perfect” final product. And after working hard I still wouldn’t feel proud of my work. All I would feel is disappointment in myself. So, I would drive myself even more to get everything just right. This can be considered a good reason why perfectionism is a good quality to have because of your determination. Not only that, I would always strive to do my best. Also when put under pressure, I can perform extremely well. I also had people tell me that I always seem
One experience that relates to this was when I became the pianist at my church. Ever since I started playing the piano, many people at my church wanted me to become the next pianist because the current one was extremely old, and wasn’t expected to live much longer. So when they asked me to play for them, it didn’t come as a surprise. What did freak me out was that I was needed to play in 10 minuets. But that wasn’t the only thing that made me nervous, it was also the fact that they chose the eight songs, that I’ve never seen before. So, as a perfectionist, I immediately started memorizing the songs like a mad man. Before I knew it, my 10 minuets flew by and I felt the hands of my mother pushing me towards the piano. When I sat down on the bench, I felt my hands become clammy and butterflies flutter in my stomach. My fingers twitched with anxiety as I placed them down gently on the slightly yellowed keyboard. I took a deep breath and started playing. Time slowly passed, until I finally reached the end of my performance. When I stood up to go back to my seat, I looked out into the crowd and saw the proud faces of my parents. I walked quietly to my seat with a huge smile knowing that I did