My Writing Analysis

My writing has many flaws I have known that since I started writing. But out of all the problems that I have always had, the one that bothers me the most is that I know I am not producing the best work I can possibly get out. I have always been confident in my thoughts and ideas, but every time I starting writing them down they never seem to be able to go the way I want them to go. My applications for college where an example of this. For all three of the essays that I wrote I know I had great I ideas to address their respective prompts. I had gone through all these experiences and I was ready to write about them. As I started writing them and finishing them I started to realize that at that point they were definitely not ready to turn in. So I took them to my literature teacher and asked her to review them and what I could do to address the problems that I saw. The next day she brought them back and told me that they simply were not cohesive enough. I went back home to review them and I believed that they were cohesive enough and that I stuck to the main
ideas I was trying to get across throughout the essay. So I went back and started rewriting my essays, started figuring out where I went wrong, and it was mostly just grammar mistakes and not using enough literary devices throughout the essays, so I just simply incorporated those into my new drafts. But even with these new and improved drafts there was still something off about them and no matter how much I kept trying to fix things here and there I was never able to produce the essays that I felt confident in that would show myself towards the colleges admissions board. Another point in my recent writing career that I noticed this problem I was facing was in my Literature class, when we would write three essays a week in preparation for the AP Exam.
I never had difficulty thinking about what to write or how I was going to address the prompt, I also never worried about not having enough written down considering I would produce about three to four pages in a relatively short amount of time. But no matter how much practice I got in writing them I would never feel confident before turning them in. And this stuck with me throughout the year and especially during the AP exam. This has been my biggest problem in writing since I started. I have approached it in many different ways but no matter what I was never able to produce any essay that had my complete confidence in. This has been my writing hump that I need to achieve in order to take my writing to where it needs to
be.