Reflection Paper
Addiction and Obsession
Soc. 301
6/10/13
Upon entering the NA meeting I had mixed feelings. I didn’t know how to come to the meeting knowing my intentions were neither to give nor receive help. I felt like I was an intruder. I didn’t understand why I should betray others or act as if I was an addict who chose not to interact in the healing and recovering process. All of those things pushed me into the door of a meeting and open my mind to the hurt behind the physical appearance of these people. Their stories were heart wrenching. They all wanted help or do be noticed at some point of their lives before they became addicts. Never knowing the decisions they chose to take that first hit would turn their worlds upside down and take their family and friends from them. Forever changing their lives and not knowing if it will ever return to what it once was. As I entered the meeting the people were very welcoming and very warm, not at all what I thought it would be. It seemed as though everyone was family, they had a sense of unity between them. As the meeting started people introduced themselves, and stated how long they have been clean. Those who had the shortest time frame of being clean got the largest and loudest ovations. The responses were full of encouragement. One man stated those who have been clean for the shortest amount of time have the hardest time during their recovery process. He stated how much easier it is to give up rather than fight the tough fight staying clean. While the members introduced themselves some shared on their past. It was shocking to see and hear some of their stories. They were vulnerable and had open themselves up to be judged, but no one was there to judge. So much encouragement filled the room. Kind words and quotes from the big book touched the souls of many. As I sat back and thought about things I wondered if this was given to these members prior to resorting to drugs where would they be.