there is insane. With all these being new impending experiences for me it was a lot to try to get my mind around the fact that I'm considered a contributing member of society now. Not only did this new job come with an income but it came with a new perspective I had about myself and what I felt was expected from me, this added pressure on me and gave me confidence. Everything seems scary as soon as you start them because you don’t even know what you’re capable of doing. In addition to the anxiety I was having due to me trying to impress the people at my job with my work ethic, I had to show my boss and coworkers that I’m reliable hard worker.
So that meant putting in the extra hours, making sure that I’m doing a good job, helping out coworkers with whatever I can. I made sure I was there every single time I was schedule or even when they needed me last second, even though my job is an hour away. My summer consisted of leaving to work at 11:30 am to getting home at 11:30 pm and even though I knew I had to be up early in the morning I still tried to have a life so I wouldn’t sleep until 3 in the morning. At 17 years old I was working like a 25 year old, I was full time working at least 45 hours a week. Once I saw that all my hard work and lack of sleep paid off well I kept striving for more because being able to say you don’t need your parents to pay for anything felt so satisfying because I could finally be independent. I was fully aware of the fact that all this hard work is nothing compared to being in college, working and trying to still have time for my life, it showed me how to manage my daily schedule and work long hours. This job literally prepared me physically and mentally because I knew that this is just a part of life that I just had to persevere through in order to
grow.