The speaker struggles with if whether his current life has any meaning and within the poem when contemplating leaving the speaker's emotions as described as leaving “me flushed and stirred, Like Then she did her her dress,” which shows us that the idea of living carefree life excites the reader and that he has contemplated this fantasy before but reality has gotten in the way and he does not know how he can make his dream manifest in real
The speaker struggles with if whether his current life has any meaning and within the poem when contemplating leaving the speaker's emotions as described as leaving “me flushed and stirred, Like Then she did her her dress,” which shows us that the idea of living carefree life excites the reader and that he has contemplated this fantasy before but reality has gotten in the way and he does not know how he can make his dream manifest in real